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Fighting to live up to the life, God allowed for me to live by all the blessing he gave to me as well as second chances he gave me. I for certain do not want to be a let down to God, or make him feel like I’m not dragging my own weight. This has been a hard battle, as well as having a life Christ is proud of; which for certain at times I have not lived life as Christ being proud of me even being on my mind. I will admit, for years back I used to think when I was a child and o

I often times ask myself this one and here it goes. goes for one, being 34 unmarried with no kids and focusing mostly on getting my career started, as well as getting relationships back but having serious relationships. Not one-night stands or two nights stands or not serious relationships. About a serious quality relationship, not like doing before, but that was doe to mental place was in as well as accident. Also hard to think, how does he love me when I made all the mistak

Well, to anyone who has set out on the Spinal Cord Injury recovery journey and/or the Traumatic Brain Injury recovery journey knows how brutal this journey gets at times. Sometimes its all one can do to keep composed and press on into the next day. To much distractions, oftentimes from what one of the injury’s took away and had me missing out on, it was hard pressing on some days. The hardest part of recovery one of them if greif over what is lost, what can no longer do, what

Daily TBI battles are many, one of them happens to be feeling people are thinking the worse and doing worse to my life. As well feeling certain people set out to destroy my life; y'all those were all delusional crazy thoughts I was having there for a while. I feel like I have been pushed to brink of sanity box before but broke at times. I came back though, came back in a big way. See y'all 2024 I was straight out of my mind, I am extremely glad to be here and now and away fro

Y’all, this happens to be much in due to my drinking in the past. Until reaching sobriety, many times shot my own foot off; sank my own boat as well. It was not pleasant at all. To many times, i did this all to repeat the same mistake over and over. Or i would circle back to same crowd over and over. Whatever it may be, i was doing things that were not productive and benefitting my future many times. Now, looking in the mirror and saying i need to quit this toxic behavior and

This happens to be a hundred percent true for me, with sobriety; also at a lighter size as well, as well as not making bad choices, I am also not going around having to apologize for the night before behavior. Sobriety, really has brought lots of security, because it lets me know one people like me sober; clear minded and with the program more than drunk me in out of my mind states. What i mean by out of my mind states; were i used to get pretty wild and out of control. Somet

Now, yall many times throughout i have fallen complacent in what doing, or driving forward, or fall stagnet. Those are the times; in which its vital to find something to drag me out. Whether it be, change of pace, of it be adding something else to motivational/inspirational stuff. I am going to begin doing with other people as well; getting stories from their experience as well as what helped them cope. This will be put into my writings as well in future books. This will open

The world through opaque lenses can get quite hard and complex at times. It feels as if and felt as if at times I was working with things I couldn't necessarily see. Mind you, obviously I became accustomed with this after all my injuries and recovering from things could not see with eyes. But y'all, this really all started late 2013 and the beginning of 2014 after Traumatic Brain Injury number one, I then thought that people from my past were trying to prevent me from living

Oftentimes, throughout my life some of the darkest corners found myself trapped in, were often self inflicted. Oftentimes they were, really either traveling backwards to the other direction where I did not want to go. Or, it many of the times was because I was then falling back on old vices to help cope. These were before healthy coping mechanisms. Where this begins the worst happens to be with snowballing thinking thoughts, a snowball type of thinking and letting my thoughts

Alrighty y'all, I really care about living and building a great quality life down here on the footstool of the Lord. But I also care about building a good life for eternity with God, my family and friends as well as other lovely Heavenly dwellers in Heaven where streets are Gold and that's where the true riches are. The home I am building in Heaven I want to be a really nice, I care about building a good life here on earth as well as up in Heaven. Within these next couple yea

Now, y'all here is something I have become all to accustomed to doing over the years. Many times, happens to be because I do in fact do have a big heart, a soft side and can be a bit sensitive. Obviously, throughout the years this has caused some problems and additional pain to me. Pain, in which I was hurt bad enough by to learn ways around not getting hurt like that again. Now, mind you I cannot prevent those types of things from happening again, but I can control my emotio

I have been through many phases, some dark phases that nearly broke my mom and I and ripped our relationship apart. In the midst of this, I knew I needed to get chilled out and quit the immature rash behavior I was exhibiting. Yes, in order to change you have to be willing to change. I was willing to change where some people are not. But do not give up on them, pray harder for them that God softens their heart. Pray that prayer, that God softens their heart. When God softens

As i am doing this motivation and inspiration, it is for what I overcome with spinal cord injury and traumatic brain injury primarilary. The others were, depression, PTSD and horrible delusions of people doing things to my life. My motivation happens to be on what able to do progressively and practically after both those traumatic injuries especially. With those being the injuries that normally are life altering, that was why I used those for motivation on what I overcome. Th

Hey y'all, as winding down the year 2025 it for sure has been such a better year than the previous however many years. I am getting the motivation going in a good direction, my book is now out for sale on Amazon in Kindle edition and Paperback edition. I am super excited about how 2026 will begin, starting out in a good direction before even getting there yet. 2026, for me will be a year a gratitude to God, as well to others who helped along the way. 2026 will be a year of an

This happens to be a hard one, this leaves me often times feeling weird in some situations as well. In many times, I write exactly like I talk when comes to writing text and story’s and posts. Do in motivational videos as well for the most part, however when i do not is in personal conversations I feel i need to protect myself. Whenever I feel the need to protect myself, in many times it is because I am in a position I feel like I am being judged or ridiculed or looked down o

Well people, Christmas came early for me personally with getting my book published and released and out for sale on Amazon as of this week. It is availed y’all in Kindle edition or Paperback edition. I am really excited about this, this will open up more doors with motivation. As of now with motivation what my plans are for next years are to do lots of horseback riding videos on Pablo. I will also, do some motivational videos showing roping the roping sled and roping Buford a

Y’all, i was at a lot of college community colleges and three university’s, but the one greatest professor i had that benefited me the most was at a community college. He also taught at a university night classes. His name is Jeremy, he is at large to thank for me also believing in myself as well. Now, in creative writing and Comp 1 and Comp 2, I wasn’t writing quality stuff like I am now and honestly everything i wrote back then was BS. But Jeremy still saw something in me,

People this happens to be emotionally speaking, not only physically after all I went through but also emotionally and mentally. Y’all overcoming a traumatic brain injury and living with having had two of them previously, certainly gets harder some days than other days. Y’all, I will spill this out this way y’all, and this come from the heart. But sometimes, where things once caused emotional pain from hurt, make you gunshot now to be around because you are expecting the worse

Oh I really hope y’all do not know what this feels like, I have felt this for years before. Not to mention many things have made that feeling worse over the years, for certain lets for yers thought that I wouldn’t know what it would be like to feel alive again. Ahh, what its like urning and burning for the of living again and enjoying life again. Longing to be lifted out of the burning hell pit many choices and unwanted company pushed me into. What its like to feel dead and r

Y’all I can say, there are many times outside of physical therapy, occupational therapy, speech therapy or cognitive therapy. That you need to be living your life all aspect, still while in recovery but expect serious. After therapy’s, starting out at inpatient rehab my fee time consisted of talking with my mom and dad and some people who were around there. After leaving there, at rehab institute, now Ability KC, when was not in therapy, came home and hung out with my mom and