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Well y'all, I really hope everyone makes wise choices tonight and not get behind the steering wheel after drinking and call a DD! Y'all, lives are at stake and no one has that right, it takes responsibility, now I do understand for some of us farm and ranch kids we can drive pretty well after drinking some because and based on how we drove around pastures and land during our teenage years. however, it slows reflex's and is not the thing to do. its out duty as we share the PRI

Well, y'all, today gave a speech, to a brain injury group via zoom meeting! this happens to be my second zoom motivational speech, ive done in person last summer, as well as two this year. I already have, out in August that are potential dates for my next booked already speech. from, each speech next one to next one I focus on making better and better and bettering my skills as a speaker! For I am really small time now, I'm doing small events, but I'm off to a great start. I'

I started off the morning with my mom, we after she got home. much to her happiness, she's now on vacation for a week and can catch up on sleep. Things have been hard on me and my mom since the loss of my dad. however really to be really honest things all went to hell and south late 2020. i won't go in detail, but things went south. you know, i am glad to of found God really again. Jesus has been here the entire time, much be vacant, from making him a part of my life for cert

Yall, this weekend's easter weekend, i would like to ask everyone to be safe and responsible this eater weekend, i know when you're drinking you always "feel fine to drive" but you're not. Do not drink and drive over this weekend. also savor the family fam, savor spending the holidays with your loved ones and hold them tight, for no day is guaranteed therefore certainly as heck not another year! I believe its important, really for us all to open up a spot in our hearts for Go

hey y'all, hope everyone's doing well, it's been quite the emotional day! you could say, ive been struggling some emotional today, what I'm so frustrated with myself about happens to be its at such an exciting time in my life I'm battling all these demons. i am battling lots of stuff, especially traumatic brain injury stuff and unwanted thoughts and getting my mind unstuck as well as trusting the positive thoughts. I need to stick and stay with positive energy, i cannot allot

This past Thursday February 26th 2026; my mom and I attended a brain injury meeting at an organization called Heads Up. A great group of people, i spoke to the group about two major pieces of my accident recovery as well as my book. The key points were on lots of stuff, but y’all the two biggest key points were moving on and depression. Moving on and depression have been some of the hardest things for me to do after my accident as well as i feel it the most frequently caused

Now anyone who has seen my Facebook, may see my sobriety was over a month after ibogaine treatment. Well, yes some of that was decompressing coming back, which was not drinking was only decompressing times. Later, begin to drink a couple of times but not a mass amount hose times and quit for September 15th, 2024, and haven't touched since. November 13th, 2025, I quit nicotine vape; I did that for my eyes, and to not piss my life down the drain. My life was going nowhere good

The world through opaque lenses can get quite hard and complex at times. It feels as if and felt as if at times I was working with things I couldn't necessarily see. Mind you, obviously I became accustomed with this after all my injuries and recovering from things could not see with eyes. But y'all, this really all started late 2013 and the beginning of 2014 after Traumatic Brain Injury number one, I then thought that people from my past were trying to prevent me from living

Alrighty this happens to be a very important aspect to recovery, all the ending that will come to an end and all the new beginnings and old closed chapters. This goes continually throughout life, all the way around. This does not just go for recovery, or therapy at all. Much of this all goes with life all the way around, life that there really are only two options when comes to a person life, either live or die. But, in other aspects there are old endings and new beginnings t

Now, I know that is as basic common sense as it gets or at least should be. I will admit, have I always abided by this? No, not at all I will admit I have before lied in life, but I believe anyone who's human has lied before. What makes a certain person a liar is a habitual liar who lies about everything and its crystal clear constantly and you can see through their lies. I really feel ashamed of times I have lied, as well as the hurt feeling they had caused. I also know God

Y'all this has gotten lots better for me after ibogaine y'all. But I will say, I still do battle this at times, a scared and not knowing what to think feelings are not pleasant. Being scared, of not only what's going to happen but in fear for the future as well is not a pleasant feeling. I will admit y'all, after the loss of my dad I really have felt a lot more open to be hurt feeling scared like I will be attacked. Now y'all, mind you after a spinal cord injury for certain i

I titled this blog article on my website accordingly, many times hit places either in recovery or other aspects of life where it feels like it's a gridlock and everything halts and all of sudden you are trying as hard and fast as you can to further along into further success. But, in the meantime sinking in quicksand of self-doubt, self-critic and usually having to destroy the old image of me that was burnt in the back of my mind I got out and happen to be no longer. Yet, at

Hey everyone, as I have made known and I am not ashamed anymore to say I see a counselor. There is not anything wrong with seeing a counselor, it's completely alright to see a counselor and get the help needed. Even if that requires medication for assistance as well, that alright. Starting out this morning, I will be honest y'all I was quite scared starting this morning off. I finally found a great counselor I had with the last one, and she got a promotion which she most cert

When doctors at Ku inpatient told my parents it was going to be hard to tell what was causing what. This was due to two major injuries, one being spinal cord injury at T12 with breaks at 8, and 10 as well. But I also had numerous other injuries, but the other major injury was brain injury on my frontal and temporal lobe. With this being really hard to deal with hearing had a brain injury, inside my mind I was like wait what this cannot be happening. I have such a sharp mind,

Alright, perspective shifts, and shifting often helps, you know really, I did prior to having to give my agreeance on going to get ibogaine treatment. You know my shift was, I am on rock bottom with no way up or out, this could be the answer that helped so many others when you read and listen to testimonies about it. Also, much thanks to Paul my neighbor who sent me a thing by Dr Robert Lustig MD explains how psychedelics can muckamuck Sertatonion and therefore in some aspect