April 12th, 2026 Sunday

I started off the morning with my mom, we after she got home. much to her happiness, she's now on vacation for a week and can catch up on sleep. Things have been hard on me and my mom since the loss of my dad. however really to be really honest things all went to hell and south late 2020. i won't go in detail, but things went south. you know, i am glad to of found God really again. Jesus has been here the entire time, much be vacant, from making him a part of my life for certain phases and years.

Jesus, well he has not always been, given credit for the things he really has done for me. for a lot of times, i almost went off without thanking him at all. I started being a lot more grateful; to God and lots more religious when i learned extreme gratitude. when i started knowing, that God didn't owe me any of what he gave me. heck y'all he didn't even own me to be born, but he did. he gave me many ways to make a nice life for myself.

As well, I started to be happier, more forgiving, more grounded and overall happier when i know not anything owed. It makes all of us people that are human and not an AI character really struggle with. AI, personally I'm not the most found of its kind of taking the purpose real, not to mention it's really taking the whole human aspects out of things. such as feeling, mental, emotional and physical.

I will say, Jesus didn't owe me to protect me in my accident or to make certain i received the care I did. he also didn't owe me the parents i really was blessed with. Ditching the giving into listening to Satan at times (I rebuke you Satan in the blood and name of Jesus Christ. Amen.), I feel the need to put that whenever bring up Satan, I can't stand him. Anyways, Satan has attacked me extremely hard over the years. I believe he did years back enter my life in a big way. he attacked hard, especially at the end of 2020. as well as late 2013.

i find that happiness, and a strong faith comes from gratitude, in knowing God doesn't owe us any given days, especially if we are not obeying him here on earth.

God doesn't owe to wake up another day, or to wake up anyone i care about but he does, I'm grateful for that as well. as well, I like to thank him for those things because he certainly didn't and doesn't owe that. need to make a point of going to mass this week.

i will continue writing more and more, i will say things have been looking up in many ways. God has opened a lot of doors. next event will be this upcoming Friday.