Perspective shifts/importance

Alright, perspective shifts, and shifting often helps, you know really, I did prior to having to give my agreeance on going to get ibogaine treatment. You know my shift was, I am on rock bottom with no way up or out, this could be the answer that helped so many others when you read and listen to testimonies about it. Also, much thanks to Paul my neighbor who sent me a thing by Dr Robert Lustig MD explains how psychedelics can muckamuck Sertatonion and therefore in some aspects the mind can fill in grooves where the mind used to travel. Alrighty, he used examples of skiing and ski slope with ski ruts, that being the mental way of thinking the pattern we accustom ourselves to thinking and doing things such as. The psychedelics help us fill in our grooves and to be full all across and be able to go any which way making many new routes.

Therefore, after ibogaine and drinking therefore not toxifying my body and mind, which I did for years people I used to have a problem that was not leading anywhere fast. I am glad to of been lifted up, and set on firm basis by the man above God. Seriously he has had to be scratching his head at times going where is Kyle's mind at and what was he thinking. But back to what I was saying, after ibogaine my brain pathways all got filled in ruts and smoothed over for way of thinking some look at it as, but really honestly what it is, is reconnection back to normal brain pathways was intended to have by God. Ibogaines spiritual to, people when you go on ibogaine trip you're not going to get high, you're going to heal. But the journey doesn't stop there, it's a true spiritual beginning of something much deeper and intense. It also unwires all the way we are programmed to think on certain stuff and things, but the mental clarity as well is wonderful.

When it was first brought up me going to Ambio Life Sciences in Tijuana, Mexico for Ibogaine treatment. I was originally strong against it, took quite some time grinding and working me closer to face planting my entire life into the concrete. I knew I needed help, I knew I needed to do something and that was a great choice for me

You know perspectives are really important, y'all years back when people said it's all how you look at things, and glass half full or empty type of deal. I used to always flip my eyes back and go om my goodness. But people in some respects, it has worked that way after my accident when you are faced with your life.

Y'all when I wake up every morning, I naturally open my eyes smiling and happy and scoot to edge of bed and can either think about how much my backs going to hurt taking a step out of bed, or flying career goal being gone and all the weekend morning flights took my parents on and team roping's and rodeos was successful at improving all the time constantly. Or I can be happy about what I really have in front of me for a bright future now with motivation and writing. I am so excited about my book and motivation and showing people what is possible and capable of after my injuries. Also show hard work pays off, and to show can still have personality through hard times and still smile.

With the freshly, I will use the term paved over ruts in the ruts that were already there, to a fresh way of thinking allowing our minds to often get out of the small little boxes that they get in while in the ruts. Ibogaine helped pave over all of that and see a wider scope again. What I mean by wide scope again, means seeing more than surface value and being surface deep on somethings.

Also, why I am as and have been as ambitious as I am even after my accident and certain things happening. Happens to be, my parents provided me every opportunity at a great phenomenal life all the way around, and I did a lot of messing up along the way. For those mistakes I hold myself to higher standard and code of ethics because I was sick of me years ago, I didn't even like myself.

There has been times over the tears, I almost burn up inside and out from burning up trying to get out of the past and not be drug back and pigeonholed has been word I've been searching for. Was not wanting pigeonholed in town as a certain type of person or that was a battle used to battle years back.

Y'all this was the original start of my delusions; they all started with this concept and by thinking people were trying to trap me in former me phases and pigeonhole me. Really, y'all I am calm, chill and laid back unless feel brutally disrespected by the beginning of lots of my delusions that widespread and got out of hand and I was suffering from feeling the most insecure I felt in my life, I started to have delusions thinking certain people were doing certain stuff to my life.

I also feel into another pigeonhole I did not want to be under in midst of all this and that was delusional. That was not a good feeling, not a feeling I wanted to have at all. It's miserable to have a delusion, because you know at the time it sounds Ludacris, but its such a strong feeling sometimes emotion control gets harder. That's why controlling emotions is so important, you know people the prisons are full of lots of people that could not control their emotions and try always remembering the Bible at heart. Anyone after a brain injury, or suffering with PTSD, or severe depression that causing lashing out and sometimes rageful behavior. Control your emotions, always remember God, know Satan would love nothing more than for you to loss you cool and go off, pray Jesus be with me, I rebuke you Satan in the name and blood of Jesus Christ Amen.

Thanks

Kyle Christiansen