Some riding shortly after my accident 8 months after, as well as roping the bones currently.

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Current updates

1) My book, is at the editor I am going back and forth with the editor working through editing process, then will move onto her publishing company. She hopes, to have my book out by the holiday, I feel blessed to of come across her an editor as well as publish who also own publishing company. She said she believes my book will be great.

2)My motivation is seeming to be heading in a great direction.

3)I'm am going to start showing workouts in some of my motivational clips at home barn gym in horse stall.

4)I am going to continue working with Pablo bringing him back into used to being handled and saddled, and ride horses again. Man hurts with all the missed time lost out on with Pablo though. He has great bloodlines Zan Par Bar and Peppy San and great gentle, loves to go quick, has go, all takes to get in position are gentle kicking and squeezing. The grey mare I rode didn't take any kicking, but Pablo was young. I roped at jackpots on Pablo. Now he's my motivational boy. Bless Jill who he came from for letting us know about Pablo. He's my baby boy. Glad she didn't call about the old goat Bobby Sue, that thing was meaner than heck and big burley meany, for sure got my butt ran over by that goat before when I was younger. I will always remember Jill for dipping pancakes.

5)Working on writing more stuff.

6)Starting with new counselor as of 11/7/25 due to last one getting promoted, she was great.

7) Talk about full circle, young cowboy I am going to ride my horse and get him legged up to ride for me again after being off for so long, happens to be son of a good guy and cowboy who my dad helped out some at times with his team roping. I am going to pay him to ride him, and to get him legged up. But talk about full circle that's heartwarming!

8)No longer in major depression, I have climbed the hole out of there, now struggling with periods of depression, along anxiety and unwanted thoughts now, as well as some ADHD. But not anything has not handled before and cannot handle, I for certain can and will handle this again.

9) Y'all probably noticed I pray to pray and Saints, I do not worship them, however. I am a Catholic, I pray for their intercession up at Heaven in my favor of the ruling God. I pray to them for them to have him take mercy and help out with things all throughout my life. I do not worship Mary however, pray to her a lot though.

10) My book is out on Amazon!

11) Thankfully; much thanks to God, my ulcer wound happens to be only a small hole now on my foot, not even bloody and flesh now really y'all it's just a hole on the top of my foot on my right foot at the base of my big toe. The rash that broke out due to blister on my calf due to my spinal cord injury and skin irritation after spinal cord injury has cleared up as well, as well as spot on my knee and bottom foot healed up to. Y'all, I am not wanting to jinx anything but starting 2026 out in good health.

Want to wish everyone a Merry Christmas, and Happy New Year and safe holiday season!

Below, are some roping videos up at the barn showing mobility, stability, balance and coordination after my spinal cord injuries, as well as brain injury's

Pictures of throughout recovery

Spinal cord injury

Well for starters, that is one scary phrase to hear. Especially when, it is on your own body they are talking about it being on. I broke my back at T8, T 10, T12 with an incomplete spinal tear at T12. I have been through a total of four back surgeries, 3 in September of 2015 and 1 of March of 2021. As far as recovery goes, shortly after my spinal cord injury I was getting out of bed with a Hoyer lift lifted out of bed, then placed in a wheelchair where I was pushed to the recovery room. This went on for some time, until I walked out of inpatient with a walker much thanks to therapist there at Ku inpatient. Especially that Gretchen from Ku inpatient, she deserves lots of the credit for kickstarting my entire accident recovery. Anywhere I get to, got to, or have done I look at her as being a huge reason it was all made possible by the groundwork, she laid under me at inpatient. As well Adam from rehab institute, now Ability KC (even though most that time I was recovering off knee surgery), but Adam laid a good foundation under me for walking as well. All my therapist did really, honestly did not have a bad one, only certain ones I really got a lot further with, or were there working with me during crucial recovery time frame recovery times, such as post operation as so forth. Spinal cord injury, as well as brain injury took the longest to recover from. My back honestly does not hurt as many would think it. It hurts, but not quite like and not all the time like some think would or does. Also, I am way more mobile than originally was after my accident, and more mobile than what thought originally would recover to. I have since walked 5 miles, 6 miles all at once without stopping, as well walked a 5K and walking a 1K this upcoming October 5th

To anyone who hears they have a spinal cord injury, it is instant fear upon hearing the news and gut-wrenching disappointment. However, do not think your life is over, for some of you depending on age you're just starting. My accident happened at 24, yes took 7 years of recovery I sluffed off for two. Yes, I was working hard but making bone head choices. This year 10 has been reconnection back to God, my mom, animals. My book will out this week, of Christmas 2025 and next year I am going to be doing some motivational videos off horseback. Do not go worst case scenario and set yourself up to be a self-fulfilling prophecy but also do not think everything is going to be rainbows and unicorns the whole way. There are some all out bloody times.

Luke 21;25-28 The coming of the Son of Man, There will be signs in the sun, the moon, and the stars, and on earth nations will be in dismay, perplexed by the roaring of the sea and the waves. People will die of fright in anticipation of what is coming upon the world, for the powers of the heavens will be shaken. And then they will see the Son of Man coming in a cloud with power and great glory. But when these signs begin to happen, stand erect and raise your heads because your redemption is at hand.

Brain injury

These are no joke, and not for the faint of heart either. I really have had, my own share of battles with my brain injuries before. My brain injuries were on my frontal and temporal lobe. As far as memory loss, and things like that my brain injuries did not affect me that way. However, aspects my brain injury has affected me in, is one being more impulsive and spur of the moment as well as lots of unwanted thoughts. I also struggled with delusions after my brain injury, and my delusions were not believing I was higher power or higher up or someone else or anything like that.

My delusions were not that at all, they were thinking people were meddling with my personal life, trying to hold me down, prevent me, out to get me, hold me back, destroy my life, hurt me, hurt every aspect of my life and destroy my life making it already more miserable than already was what I was thinking people were doing. My delusions, turned me against people, made me not want anything to do with certain people at all on top of already not, took people that I didn't even have an opinion about and didn't dislike them and made me not like them even though I know that's a delusion and I can step outside of the delusion box and tell. But it's stronger than that while drug inside of the delusional box the brain injury's allotted for at times throughout my brain injury journey which has been a little longer than my spinal cord injury second brain injury recovery. There has been much chaos my brain injuries have led to, felt also disrespect was trying to be shown towards me in every way possible.

There really, were numerous battles after my brain injuries, but I battled through them and overcame them. Personally, I fight some brain injury stuff constantly with thoughts or at times with blurred eyesight on bottom half at certain times of day. But, besides these, I pretty much do not battle anything else brain injury daily basis. Quite honestly no one who went out with me or anything like that did not know the real me either, especially now drinking and brain injury reversed, on top of not drinking. Also, people from certain phases of my life, I look a pitfall to fall to a tragic downfall by running with old crowds circling back to old ways that almost sunk me. I had to separate from lots of drinking; I can be around drinking and not be bothered. But, and quite honestly not many people actually know the real me. That is also why I put a personal piece, not to mention to relax anyone with a brain injury to reach out if have any questions about anything. Also, lots of people knew drunk me, or delusional me, or brain injured me, not me after healed.

Also, not every thought comes out of my mind is a damaged thought off a brain injured brain that's been healed. I still make mature and wise choices, also do not need a person to do the talking for me. My brain injury number 1 that found out about my diagnosed one in my accident was late 2013 and caused all sorts of problems that were unexplainable at the time besides Kyle being off. Y'all mix this, with needing to be seen differently than was in school and current state and not for unproud phases or talk about any embarrassing times. This was for sure hard, and got harder when added alcohol to the mix, but once again I am over 1 year 1 month and 10 days sober. There were some people who I wasn't the nicest to at last college I was at only because my delusions from brain injury number one, and some of them would've been cool to of been friends with.

But until my brain injury was repaired that wasn't happening with anyone. But I acted like a real horses rear end at the end of that college due to my brain injury number one. At another college I was extremely immature at because of depression, and drinking, I literally had to be over the top obnoxious at. Also, there were times throughout my accident recovery I was not the most mature that came back after my brain injury was healed and repaired, and back to being mature as was for short periods of my life previously.

Brain injuries are no joke, also they do not make a person incompetent or stupid because had one, there are many things still competent in and progressively get competent in, no need to think you cannot progress and be smart after a brain injury either. Mood swings are more common after brain injuries, I will admit I am a little moodier and have more unwanted thoughts and delusions fight, with my brain injuries than having memory problems, or problems talking or problems with motor skills.

After two traumatic brain injuries, it really causes some mental problems for a while. I will admit, I am not the easiest person to live or to even be around at times. That has gotten healed now, not only with time but ibogaine, except I still have moments where I am hard to live with when I get over the top needy with insecurities and feeling inadequate and needing reassurance. Trust me y'all at times I want to tell myself to shut up when I get that overly needy, but it gets unbearable at times. I will be the first to admit those of us with spinal cord injuries or Traumatic Brain Injuries are not the easiest to live with at times. I will be up front and straight out honest. There are some things about the other that which are a pain as well. TBI stuff however, the thoughts whenever i experience unwanted thoughts I literally sink into sadness and sink into feeling sad not only sad but fatigued.

Heavy delusions and feeling of being tampered with and destroyed, really happen to be a scare I personally battle. Everyone fights different things, especially after Traumatic Brain Injuries. Now y'all, what I fight the most happens to be worrying about being attacked. This goes for mentally, verbally and physically. I really have fought many times where it literally felt as if I am falling apart.

TBI's, can make one feel like no one cares about them but to take away and try degrading and belittling and attacking verbally and physically. People brain injuries, can also make you think a loved ones doing something to you they are not! This is more than scary, and dangerous now personally I have not felt this for years. But, for some time was feeling this about my mom and dad. Now, I do not but for some time did, y'all other people I really thought did something bad to me or what was capable of having, literally this was how delusional was but thought Joe and Ashley, close family friends of my mom's who flew out to San Diego with us for Ibogaine treatment did things to me. as well as they were putting me in fat gut groups.

Now this was a delusion, but something I felt. I also felt like everything I talked to one doctor about was turned on me. All insecurities, all previous pain that hurt only got made worse.

But some people when around I don't think about, and don't think about the little box times. In counseling with that great one had for a while Elizabeth; I was able to remain all on current pain that was hurting.

Luke 19;45-47 The cleansing of the temple; Then Jesus entered the temple area and proceeded to drive out those who were selling things, saying to them, It is written, My house shall be a house of prayer, but you have made it a den of thieves.

Broken pelvis, arm, ribs both sides, torn ACL, Mencius, hamstring

My broken pelvis for certain was most pain, as well as Torn ACL, Mencius and hamstring. My broken ribs healed on their own, due to all the other surgeries and major recoveries had to recover from, they did not operate on my pelvis. I did have an arm surgery with a metal plate with screws in my left forearm. My knee surgery was a six and a half long hour surgery and was one extremely painful recovery to recover from. As well, knee surgery set me back in recovering from my spinal cord injury because it was operated on a few months after my accident and after already being in physically for a while, I will be honest I have felt pain in extremes I did not know was possible or thought I could endure. I have felt pain in all areas of my body, that did not think was possible to endure. My knee was painful and took a while to recover from and that is mostly what I worked on at rehab institute, now ability KC after inpatient rehab. It really wasn't until after rehab institute stuff got to work heavily on spinal cord injury stuff again. Lots at rehab institute was laying base foundation of my walking style and pattern as did at inpatient rehab. My arm did not take any rehab on really in physical therapy I worked on gaining arm functionality back more in occupational therapy. My knee took about 6 months to recover completely from but was double weak after knee surgery on top of loss of strength after spinal cord injury. This made walking very scary and intimidating for a while at first. I will say knee surgery set me back 6 moths, and was quite painful for months after, as well as was careful walking on my knee. These were frustrating times as well as hard times to deal with. These were not altering injury's besides temporarily that were inconvenient for therapy and life all the way around. Oh, and also where my lovely bones snapped kind of flare up and really hurt whenever storms are around. Broke my left knee twice after my accident as well once coming home from a date, the other was chaining the loader on the trailer and stepped in a hole. The date one slipped on gravel stepping out of her car by patio and then had to have my knee in brace for a while. Snap back when chaining had to be off and have a brace on for a while after. I also broke my left arm once snapping back behind my back roping the dummy at the barn.

Psalm 39;2-3 The vanity of life, I said I will watch my ways, lest I sin with my tongue; I will set a curb on my mouth. Dumb and silent before the wicked, I refrained from any speech.

Daily Battles After Spinal Cord Injury/Traumatic Brain Injury

Well for starters, I actually had both of them and they were separate injuries. However, they both affected some of the same things internally as well externally. For one, motor skills get thrown off with both of those. Here are some ways a Spinal Cord Injury makes daily life hard: 1) Getting Dressed

2) Going to the Bathroom

3) Getting Ready for the day

4) Dealing With Pain

5) Getting Comfortable for the day.

6)Getting Squared away with work stuff comfortably and timely.

7) Transfers in and out of vehicles or anything motorized.

8)Struggling with feeling Judged at times

9)Feelings of worry about if out somewhere if will be able to handle all terrain. Now these were all things used to battle a lot more until getting to a certain point in recovery.

Common TBI problems throughout the day:

1)Unwanted thoughts

2)Racing thoughts and sticking thoughts that won't get unstuck out of one's mind.

3)Fear for the future as goes with Spinal Cord Injury as well as bladder leaks, and problems at times going to the bathroom.

4) Nerves of being judged for having TBI

5)Anything already struggle with gets made worse with TBI, ADHD, OCD, Depression, Anxiety, ended up having PTSD becuase of my brain injury.

6)Horrible anxiety to point raises fear.

7)Racing heart at times and hard time sleeping.

8)Hard time not having numerous thoughts all at once.

9)Harder time to navigate thoughts and around my mind.

10) Harder to live a quality personal life.

11) Harder to have people around.

12) Harder to think in general at times.

13)General state of confusion at times when things may seem out of place or not adding up. 14)More worry's

Now I am glad to be recovered and in a place, I am in now, living progressively and practically throughout with both of those injuries.

Lamentations 4;1-5 Miseries of the Besieged City; How tarnished is the gold, how changed the noble metal; How the sacred stones lie strewn at every street corner! Zions's precious sons, fine gold their counterpart, Now worth no more than earned jars made by the hands of a potter. Even the jackals bare their breasts and suckle their young; The daughter of my people has become as cruel as the ostrich in the desert. The tongue of the suckling cleaves to the roof of its mouth in thirst; The babes cry for food, but there is no one to give it to them. Those accustomed to dainty food perish in the streets; Those brought up in purple now cling to the ash heaps.+

Riding, Flying, and driving again in that order after my accident.

I was back on a horse, Pablo my heel horse who is like an oversized dog personality. I have bonded close with him riding and competing on him over the years, as well as my head horse Cherokee who I am close with. I was back on a horse 8 months after my accident, 6 months after discharge. I was flying again a few years after, but like I keep saying have to have another pilot in fact a flight instructor on board now to log PIC (pilot in command) flight time on. I was driving again four years after my accident; I was driving again. I was riding again early 2016, flying again late 2018, and driving again earlier 2019. I will ride again, I stopped for years after my accident because of depression and fell in a bad spot for a while mentally and let that drive me away from spending time with my horses and being around the barn. As well riding and roping the bones. It was really hard having to have my parents take me places for a while, until I started driving again. This was another feeling I cover in my book at editor now. Was I scared again to drive again? Yes, most excited but also really nervous to drive again. Flying again, was extremely excited about, riding as well and i went backwards there from the order they went in being back doing some of, until drove all the time again. The most embarrassing of not doing at the time was driving again yet, that was embarrassing.

It was a really hard pill to swallow and admit I wasn't going to be able to get medical back. That meant thousands of bucks went down the drain along with my childhood dream.

John 5;31-32 Witnesses to Jesus, If I testify on my own behalf, my testimony cannot be verified. But there is another who testifies on my behalf, and I know that the testimony he gives on my behalf is true.

I was not the real me in school nor was I mentally from 2013-2025! This year back

Man, this gets really rough y'all wasn't my real self all throughout school, did everything to do everything better from then on out and not redo old mistakes. I also, suffered brain injury number one late 2013 coming off the paint horse Jake behind the barn. The mega brain injury, came with my car accident, where I suffered a severe one on my frontal lobe, as well as temporal lobe. I feel it is nothing short of a miracle, to be in position I am now. I am on edge, because on the brink of massive success again with book on brink of being released around Christmas and I don't want anything to go wrong. Also, as I have gotten back to Jesus, God, the Holy Spirit, and ran away many of my demons that were there by my brain injury and healed, both externally and internally as well as got mentally healthy again. I fell, for falling into dark depressing stuff with depression and isolation at times. Even when I was around people were still battling those, that they would not go away. Ibogaine really helped heal that, as well as sobriety and getting my motivational career going. In times we live in now, of spiritual warfare, I want to make certain my sins are rectified and repentant on as well as right with God, and having St Michael fighting for souls and at time of passing. May, I one day still have the strength after leaving this earth to still rebuke Satan in eternal life on my way to God. Satan fights for souls all the way to God in eternal life. Also, one of my missions is being a better man, being a being man all the way around, the way I live my life and what I do in my life. I am certainly better than was through school and certainly better than I was last year as well, night and day. Also, not saying opposite stuff, straightforward saying what I mean, meaning what I say. No delusions currently, as well as no brain injury stuff. My brain injury really showed expressing emotions hard for a while. Also not getting excited about life is something wish to gain back, life doesn't need to be dull, needs fragrance, needs personality, needs sass, needs to be colorful. It like if life's a coffee shop, (I drink black coffee but using an analogy) or somethings like a gingerbread latte for life and make it have spice and excitement. Do not allow any negative to water down and dilute your drink either, keep a safeguard around the top the lid. I look at that like the brain; you have to watch what it is around and what goes in and out of it. Also watch fill capacity, and who you spill on when filled past the brim of capacity of what can handle. Do not go overflowing like a leaking hydrant everywhere you go, also I learned to allow people to rock the capacity around inside my cup making me think I am going to spill, and lose my chill, but do not watch the cup. That my words I will leave people with watch your cup.

Matthew 12;25; The Praise of the Father; At that time Jesus said reply, I give praise to you, Father, Lord of heaven and earth, for although you have hidden these things from the wise and the learned you have revealed them to the childlike.

Certain Times Sorry For! Deep Apology's

To anyone I cut with my tongue, or with my actions I am sorry. For some time there after my accident, I was a little out of control with some things. To some of the women, I went on dates with using online dating because my accident, which happened to be a little embarrassing but got passed it. It worked well, not necessarily the option I am looking to go to next for meeting someone. But out of the girls met, had relationship stuff with and relationships with. There really were only two that really cared about me and those are the only two I mention or show on anything. Only reason I did was to show can live normal life all aspects after an accident. Also showing two key pieces in making my mental health better for short periods of time.

Where I am going with this, is I was a real jack wagon when around them, treated both of them horribly as well as some other people. I even didn't treat my therapist the best at certain times when I was struggling with emotional stuff. As well, I did not treat my parents the best always, I literally fight back tears on what a mess I personally was for so long. I am really sorry to anyone who hurt with my words or actions or by both.

Jeremiah 9;10-12: Shameless In Their Crimes: Therefore, I will give their wives to strangers, their fields to spoilers. Small and great alike, all are greedy for gain, prophet and priest, all practice fraud. They would repair, as though it were nought, the injury to the daughter of my people. Peace, peace! they say, though there in no peace. They are odious; they have done abominable things, yet they are not at all ashamed they know not how to blush. Hence they shall be among those who fall; in their time of punishment they shall go down, says the Lord.

Exercises did lots of later in physical therapy!

1)Walking
2)Lateral/sideways walking
3)Backwards walking, backpedaling
4)Recumbent
5)Battle ropes
6)Elliptical
7)Side planks
8)Ball transfers
9)Push-ups
10)Med ball slams
11)Roman crunches
12)Stairs
13)Step ups
14)Dips
15)Stationary Bike

16)Front planks
17)Planter and dorsal flexion
18)Adductor and Abductor strengthening
19)Woodchoppers
20)Russian twist
21)Bench, squat, incline bench, barbell and dumbbell as well as butterflies, hammer curls, concentrated curls, leg press, let pulls, shoulder press
22)Hamstring curls
23)Leg extensions

24) Single arm rows
25)Seated rows
26)Timed walks, distance walks, form walks
27)Leg lifts on bed
28)Ab roller
29)Bicycling in motion lying flat on back on ground.
30)Sit to stands
31)Eversion and Inversion on feet
32)Pull ups
33)Hanging knee ups
34)holding ball between knees doing squats and roman crunches.
35) Heel Slides.

Sobriety From Alcohol

Y'all my sobriety, really has been hugely beneficial to getting my career started as well as getting healthy again. Ibogaine, really helped me as well as sobriety over the course of last year hit one year sober, 10-year accident anniversary even though no alcohol was involved in my accident, wrote a book that's out now my book: My Mountain to Climb, as well as dropped back to my natural normal sizes and feeling good really again the new sizes I stay at now have changed a little over the years, but overall like to be under 200, I'm at 185 pounds now cutting another 15-20 pounds again, but this time not drinking anything and haven't been this whole time.

Quitting alcohol, really people it got to the point I felt I was dumped gasoline on a fire inside of me. I also at times, well y'all due to my drinking I battled elevated liver enzymes which they returned to normal after I quit drinking. Now, they are only elevated because the medication I am on, they are switching up and changing. I met with the two great case mangers/social workers today for brain injuries, and part of the new me is health and staying healthy, I am going in for an eye appointment sometime as well as dentist appointment and y'all, well let's just say it's been a minute since I have been to either of those. As well as scheduling to actually, brace yourselves y'all yes, I will go to the doctor regularly and get checked up on, I care about living a long life and taking care of myself.

My drinking was over the top, it was out of control, I for certain hurt lots of people while drinking. I quit for quality of life, for certain I knew if I didn't stop my life would be thrown down the drain and I wouldn't have a successful life or quality life at all and I was about to throw away all my hard work, goals, and aspirations would be thrown away on the bottle that led me to bad choices and feeling like I failed certain phases of life due to alcohol.

Were some of my darkest days fought after quitting drinking? Depends on how you look at that, some of the hardest battles have happened during times of not drinking, but they have happened throughout drinking times as well. However, the difference is how I really handle them sober and drunk are opposite. I find and use healthy coping skills and tools when not drinking, whereas drinking only dump things on more with alcohol. I have not drunk anything for over 1 year and 4 months now and not returning to alcohol.

My sobriety really y'all happens to be the only reason I am still alive, alcohol was going to kill me, things were continuously going hard like that, and having back to back alcohol problem had to lead to sobriety.

My mom and dad
My moms still going strong, RIP dad 11/3/58-9/17/22

Meet my mom LaRee Smith Christiansen born 6/6/65, who is still going strong and happens to be part of my motivational team. My dad was to, big Mike Christiansen born 11/3/58-9/17/22 who Rest In Peace we laid to rest due to widespread cancer late 2022. My parents both played a vital role in my accident recovery, my dads education helped pay the way for somethings that would not of had, unless he was bringing in what he was. My mom and dad have both been super supportive, of anything i cared about or care about in life. They have had my back my entire life, and also have stood by my side through thick and thin easy times and hard times.

My dad was a project manager, estimator and business development for a Steel Company. My mom had her own cleaning business; she quit and put aside whenever my accident happened to help take care of me and make certain made all appointments. After the loss of my dad, now she works at the post office, she has worked as an LPN nurse before, as a PARA in a special education classroom, as well as worked for a construction company for a while. My dad worked for IBP packing for years, as well as Dekalb, and my grandparent's business at the time. He went with the business, as they went and sold-out years back, but he went with the business. My team dad was into rodeo, so I picked up having an interest in team roping and rodeo pretty naturally from being around it so much, it was only common was going to team rope and rodeo whenever got older as I did.

Psalm 104;1-4, Praise of God the Creator; Bless the Lord, my soul! Lord, my God, you are great indeed! You are clothed with majesty and glory, robed in light as with a cloak. You spread out the heavens like a tent; you raised your palace upon the waters. You make the clouds your chariot; you travel on the wings of the wind. You make the winds your messengers; flaming fire, your ministers.

Spinal Cord Injury and Traumatic Brain Injury Dailiy Battles

Spinal Cord Injury Battles!

-Getting dressed
-Getting out of bed
-Going to the bathroom
-Showering
-Shaving and brushing teeth because standing balance
-Preparing meals
-Making coffee
-Unloading dishwasher
-Taking out garbage
-Feeding horses
-Walking
-Getting in and out of a chair as well as vehicles
-Feeling looked at harshly and judged often, feeling often like life is set out to be sunk that's a brain injury overlap.
-Isolation

Traumatic Brain Injury Struggles

-Delusions
-Hard wired thoughts about the way certain people feel about me and certain groups of people as well as women in general anymore.
-Hard wired feeling unwanted and undesired and seen not as anything but a fat guy, which I am not but that's the way I feel I am looked at by some no matter how light get.
-Feeling certain people will always be around to attack me for anything or saying anything good.

-light sensitivity as well as blurred eyesight

-Depression

-Anxiety

-Feeling worthless

-Feeling like failed life

- Feeling like past phases being looked at when things make me feel like those times, y'all this is all raw emotion.

-Laying all that I deal out there!

Me as a young child with my family!

Some about my struggles!

Daily struggles after spinal cord injury, as well as traumatic brain injury.

1) Daily getting dressed

2) Daily bathroom stuff and bathing

3) Taking care of one self in ways of laundry and etc...

4) Daily chores

5) Simple things as small as making coffee and unloading the dishwasher because the strain extra takes after those injuries.

6) Misbehaving, having a nasty attitude, being negative and looking for reasons to be sad and not happy.

7) Staying positive and optimistic.

People that have stood by me and my mom and dad's side, especially me and my mom after my dad passed when things were so dark for a while.

Brian and LeAnn (who personally I do not deserve what they have done for me and my mom)

Mike and Terri (Who personally I do not deserve what they did for me and mom)

Brad and Vicki (Personally who I do not deserve to have help out now as well as do stuff in the past for me and my mom)

Joe and Ashley (Who personally I do not deserve anything they have done for me for me and my mom)

John and Jill (Who personally I did all they did for me and my mom)

Matt and Tracey (Who personally I did not deserve anything)

Mike and Janice (Who I personally did not deserve anything)

My uncle Chris and aunt Janet (Who I have not ever deserved what they have gave me)

My dad's uncle Bill and Aunt Diane (Who I did not deserve anything they did for me and my mom)

Bill and Charlene (Who personally I did not deserve anything they did for me and my mom)

I am sorry if I am leaving anyone out.

Obviously, my parents happen to be the biggest reason I am here now in recovery as well as now able to get my career started, but there has been some others help along the way.

Gayla (Who personally I did not deserve anything she has done for me and my mom at all)

May the year of 2026 be one of Gratitude towards all who have helped, but mainly to God. May 2026 be a gratitude year towards God.

Here is the daily verse from the book of gratitude of 2026; I am going on and posting for January 1st that way do not get sidetracked and forget.

-This is the day which the Lord hath made; we will rejoice and be glad in it.; Psalm 118:24

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Thank y'all for checking out my website. I really hope y'all found it beneficial to spinal cord injury recovery and traumatic brain recovery and living life throughout and after. Along with the other injuries I recovered from, as well as overcoming my addiction to alcohol which has been my tragic downfall to many times in life to let it be again. I also, fought heavy depression as well as anxiety and the loss of my dad and two grandparents throughout all of this. Yes, obviously my dad's loss was the hard hit but one grandparent after she passed there went family get together and family holidays. I lost a lot yes, my flying and my future aviation career and bumping up from private pilot to commercial after I logged enough hours. I was working on instrument rating at the time of accident with two sign offs all but my instrument rating in logbook and the required instrument flight time. I did have logged localized approaches and logged departures and approaches as well as holding patterns, worked teardrop, direct, and parallels. But my experience was in private pilot single engine land getting flight time logged and built. As far as team roping and rodeo, yes, I lost that I was doing at a successful level roping both ends. I was about to break over in both, obviously my accident was a huge sidetrack on my life to where I plant my cross at the end of my journey through life to be lifted into afterlife into judgement day, then purgatory, then Heaven. I do have such a bright future with the motivation, with the book, with the speeches as well as content. I really hope y'all find my content beneficial, y'all are probably like that Kyle reads quite a bit in a year. That was a heavy reading year, I normally don't read like that, depends on my mood. Y'all, I could feel sorry for myself and be frowning all the time and be hostile. Or I can be happy and wake up as I do happy every morning to have another blessed day on earth. Another day that now, my cross to carry to my finish line in life is now a lot bigger and heavier and causes quite the more stumbles alongst the way. But needless to say, giving up is not in my vocabulary and will not consider giving up, nor should I. Also, God did not give up on me when I was a lost cause hopeless and helpless and weak, God lifted me up and gave me strength. God lifted me, when I was at the bottom of the barrel and useless really, wasting away I was and God lifted me and saved me and saved my life really. The true 180 that God helped me do with my life, that was only achievable through God and through God's strength, for I am weak and do not have that kind of power he has he worked in my life and worked with me. God lifted me, gave me strength he gave me internal strength I did not know I had or could handle. God has taught me lots of things about myself, God keeps teaching me things about myself constantly. I am God's ongoing project, I find it so odd we as humans are so quick to give up on God or throw the towel in when things get tough or things do not go our way honestly, only being brutally honest or things don't turn out as planned. Many times, we turn o God but why? He stays with us through all our hardships and when we are in hardships so is Jesus and God, they do not give up on us humans, why do we give up on them. Also why are we so quick to believe, for those who do not believe in God to believe a loved one's past spirits around them at times. Well, stop and think who do you think created that spirit, where do you think that came from. What do you think is on the other side, and why so many times are our hearts and mouths disconnected. Thank y'all take care, God bless.

I greatly from the bottom of my heart appreciate you people checking out my website, much appreciated. Take care, God bless and I kind of fear the big man up top.