Welcome to Kyle Christiansen recovery, where I show my overcoming brain injury and spinal cord injury!
Below are pictures and videos, on my recovery as well as some of my personal life experiences to help people know me motivationally, on a personal aspect.
10/5/25
Here is a before and after, the therapist moving my legs and Hoyer lift, as well as leaning on cart was shortly after my accident. The other clip, was a mobility clip, showing walking and moving around after my accident recovery.
My Ibogaine family, these people are not relation but may as well be.
Hey y'all, here are my ibogaine at home care team. My mom was a strong leader, along with family friends Brad and Vicki as well as Joe and Ashley, who were all part of convincing me to go as well as my mom. Joe and Ashley flew out to San Diego, California from Kansas City where in San Diego grabbed a hotel stayed at the Sheridan. The next morning, I was picked up by Ambio life sciences at the front door and driven across the border straight to the treatment facility. I go more into my Ibogaine experience in my book, it was extremely intense and extremely life changing. Out in California, (which I was not in my right state of mind the entire time back then periodically) them and my mom stayed at the Sheridan hotel and stayed in San Diego when I was in Tijuana, Mexico for five days. They then stayed, one more night in San Diego with me and my mom, before returning home to Kansas City area. The treatment was intense, prior to treatment had to have physical done as well as EKG (which I was hooked up to entire time on ibogaine) there is a doctor and another medical staff member in the room the time of treatment, it's a freaky experience you can see them sitting in the corner through the haze of what look like a fog lenses of freaky music and past regrets and things really should've done differently. Also, what looked like a mess out in front of me, all circling in the corner of the room. But I did not see anything on my experience, my metal clarity, delusions, paranoia, depression, PTSD, anxiety all happens to be a hundred times better after ibogaine had time to rewire my mind after my brain injuries. People ibogaine is not a joke, also it is not like through the 1960's taking trips without leaving farms. Throughout sharing some personal pictures of my personal like and what made me, and who I am is also meant to show and help people see that you can live normally even going through treatments like this. Pictured below are some shirts I wear which kind of show where I stand. Much thank to Vicki for the Psalms shirt, much thanks to my mom's coworker Kim, for the spinal cord injury warrior shirt. Much appreciate my Charlie Kirk shirt, my mom got for me, as well as the Vahala shirts my mom gets me. I appreciate people thinking of me! Man, these people y'all have seen me through the phases, unproud phases and proud phases, the unproud phases are ones I'm embarrassed of around them. But they are like family, so therefore not to ashamed to show my face. But at times the embarrassing, times some were around for after my accident and my mind not being in the right spot for quite some time those are times are horribly embarrassed of.
Quick before and after comparsion
More pictures and videos, throughout my accident recovery.
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Some personal pictures before and after my accident, also show a little more of lifestyle i lived prior to my accident.
Back in 2013 me on the left, heading with the gray thermal on.
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I had the wonderful opportunity, of having dinner with this very special, driven and successful woman! This was after my accident; I had the opportunity of talking with Amberly Snyder which was a great experience. I, however, will not strap in and return to rodeo my spinal cord injury was at T12 where hers was. However, my spinal cord injury, was an incomplete therefore I can walk and had a probability of walking and getting out of a chair as I did. I really wish this lady this best, I am so happy for her getting married, won a buckle with a newer horse and all she has been doing.
Here are some pictures, showing life through overcoming spinal cord injury and brain injury, as well as depression, PTSD and anxiety and working on writing. Also working on the motivational stuff, yes I drink a lot of coffee really have since a toddler out of a sippie cup with creamer then black coffee since age 6. I also drink to help with depression and for lift of mood.
My personal likes, and some about me personally. Putting this on here for people to feel more comfortable who had brain injuries. My personal pictures are to help people understand what life I have really lived and also helps to get to know me a little bit. I smile a lot. Also to show a lighter side of me living life up and my personal like despite all the rehab and injury stuff. The pictures are showing life living happily throughout.
-Drink: coffee, Celsius, water, unsweet tea
-Food: mostly eat Atkins style or clean eating either one, but eggs on enchiladas, prime rib, burnt ends, brisket, cream filled peppers (not poppers I get those confused telling people sometimes, I don't like poppers), corned beef and cabbage, flavored brats with relish no bun with egg on top, brisket on top of a burger without bun and burger with fried egg on top. Also grilled chicken with eggs, and pepperjack cheese scrambled eggs. Dipped club multigrain crackers in black coffee. Hot dogs from a place used to be called New York dog pound, hot dogs with sausage and bacon with relish on them. Really good. Brisket salad, sauteed mushrooms mixed with bite of prime rib or ribeye.
-I only eat sweets on holidays and my birthday, eat clean and low carb, listed some of my favorite foods though, my favorite sweets homemade coconut cream pie or blueberry pie, or spritz cookies.
-Music: Rock, Metal, Indie, Red Dirt, a little pop, favorite singers right now who are country are Parker McCollum, Morgan Wallen, Austin Meade, Flatland Calvary, Kyle Park, Jason Aldean, George Strait, Jelly Roll (huge fan now seeing all what he has done personally he's really killing it) and has great story he is what America is all about, Eddie and the getaway, Wyatt Flores Pecos and the Rooftops, Whiskey Myers. Favorite of rock and metal are Chevelle, Dorthey, The Pretty Reckless, Halestorm, still AC/DC and Skynard, Fuel, Disturbed, Adelitas Way, Asking Alexandria, Dead Poet Society, Breaking Benjamin, Godsmack, Brandon Lake, Metallica, Candlebox, collective soul, Soundgarden, Warren Zeiders, Red Clay Strays. Also, like Benson Boone, Ed Sheran and One republic as well as One Direction, who was actually at the downtown airport one day I was there flying trying to get out of the parking lot. Like their music, also Pop Evil, I will say I like some of Slipknot, the ones I like I like a lot. My favorite by them is Vermillion and vermillion PT2, snuff, devil in I, all out of life, unsainted, duality, before I forget, dead memories and psychosocial. Also still like Thin Lizzy, REO, Van Halen, Sammy Hagar, Led Zepelin, Judas Priest and Def leopard (huge fan of their one armed drummer/utmost respect for that man), newer country singer I like Megan Patrick and Kassi Ashton, Julia Coles another one my newer favorites. also like Hayden Coffman, Sterling Elza, Doobie Brothers, and at times the Beach Boys are a guilty pleasure I will admit listening to surfin USA I love that old song also like 49 Winchester.
-Music I went through phases of listening to nonstop when I was younger in my youth: Stone Sour (big fan of Corey Taylor, big fan of his story as well, the being thrown in a dumpster after he was that depressed he tried taking his own life hit home with me, but hit deep where I listened closely to lots of the catchy lyrics in college and studied his writing stuff. He was a major influence on way I write, as well as for people I know was my dad. but for people I do not know who I look up to, he was one for writing)( and Jim Root), Shinedown (fan of Brent Smith, not only of his music but of some of his story as well, also how he took critics criticizing his weight at one time to now be making fitness videos on Instagram between shows), Nickelback, Brooks and Dunn (Was Kix Brooks biggest fan when I was a young child), George Strait, Chris Ledoux, John Mellencamp, Bruce Springsteen (Clarence on Saxaphone is incredible), Three Days Grace (big fan of Adam Gontier and Matt Walsh). Anyone wonders why I like music so much, and mention often happens to be when I switched school middle school and had no friends music was my friend. In no way wanted to be a musician, but the writing side always fascinated me, not going after that either, only saying. One of my favorite guys to listen to on guitar is Peter Frampton, another one I like a lot is Eric Clapton. I will admit I went through an Avenged Sevenfold phase in high school, which I really like their music and their guitarist I like, but now need to be in certain mood to listen.
-Favorite sports teams-K-State, Kansas City chiefs, Oklahoma State, Texas A@M, Notre Dame! Go state though EMAW! Big fan of Patrick Mahommes, Travis Kelce, Chris Jones, Andy Reid, Chris Kleiman, Dabo Sweeney, Mike Gundy, Bill Snyder.
-One of my favorite things about Saturdays are letting dogs out and back in making coffee turning on college gameday then feeding horses. I enjoy listening to those guys on college gameday especially Saban.
-Favorite airshow performers: Mike Goulihan, Rob Holland, Air Force Thunderbirds, Navy Blue Angels, there a Jackie in a yellow plane at airshows I really like watching.
-Movies/Shows: Bat 21, Air America, Top Gun, Stripes, Caddyshack, Tombstone, Lonesome Dove, Top Gun Maverick. Shows: Chicago PD, Yellowstone, FBI, Landman, Happy Face, Tulsa King, Prison break, 1923, White Collar, Goliath, Ozark, movies also like double jeopardy, U.S Marshalls and the Fugitive. Also like, Passion of Christ, like Unbroken as well as Tora Tora Tora.
-Favorite actors/actresses: Kurt Russell, Mel Gibson, Robert Downey Jr, Jim Caveziel, Dennis Quad, Billy Bob Thorton, Robert Duvall, Tommy Lee Jones, Kevin Costner, Val Kilmer, Kate Hudson, Sandra Bullock, Sophia Bush and Marina Squarcaiti, Meg Ryan, Eizabeth Shue, Goldie Hawn, Reese Witherspoon, Joan Cuzak. Sean Connery and Nicolas Cage are two more really like as well as Ryan Reynolds, Tom Cruise, Jennifer Aniston, Courtney Cox the friends cast, Adam Sandler, John Travolta, Goldie Hawn, Nicole Kidman, Jim Belushi, Kimberly Paisley, Jon Hamm, Demi Moore.
-Favorite books: Fly Girls by Keith O'Bryan. The Aviators by Winston Groom, Nerves of Steel by Tammy Jo Schutlz, Sully both books by Chelsea Sullenberger, American Sniper by Chris Kyle, Unusual Attitudes by Martha Lunken, current book reading is Flipside by Mace Curran, current book I am reading.
-Favorite book to refer back to is the Bible, especially Psalms, Proverbs, Matthew, Luke, Mark, Hebrews, Corthinians and Peter are my favorite parts of the Bible to refer back to. Patron saint I was given at birth was Saint Augustine! He lived a colorful life.
-Favorite Vacation: probably Florida, or Las Vegas or all the times in the mountains of Colorado. Especially vacation to pick up Wyatt Chesapeake Bay retriever named after Wyatt Earp off Tombstone (like Doc now named after Doc Holiday off Tombstone) bit the lady's dress and I was embarrassed as a young child.
-Favorite way to reminisce over fond memories after accident: evening in the dark, with a lamp on, with coffee with chill music on quietly and thinking of the former flights had had, or former team roping's had, or remember parts of my life that were good, that savor memories from. For me the music group that puts me in a mood for that is one republic. I find peace, in listening to their music after my accident. Listening to music helps me, not only concentrate at times, but also deep soul search as well as remember fond memories and helps with depression, that's why I mention music often.
-Coffee chills are one my favorite feelings, when chilled then take drink out of hot coffee and chill all over I like that feeling. Also the first cup of coffee of the day along with chew. That gets my morning started.
-unknown facts about me- I like to shop, I like to read, I do meditation, I do nature cruises to get my roots connected back to earth. Favorite stores to go shop at I really like shopping, Nigros western store, Macy's, REI, Apple store, Scheels, Ralph Lauren, North face, NRS (National ropers supply), Cavenders, Sheplers, Ariat and Justin boots. as well as nike and puma shoes with hey dudes are all my favorite things to shop for and stores to go to, especially after dinner around Christmas time.
-I collect nice sunglasses wear nice sunglasses, Ray-Bans, Bex and Oakleys, I wore with flying and fit my style at young age. Also official jerseys when where a sports team jersey.
-No pain-Shockingly enough I do not like to be in pain, despite my lifestyle. Even after my accident, I live a lifestyle harder on the body at times. But, pain is not something I like being in. Due to my walking caused a pressure ulcer and fourth back surgery. But glad to have to hardware out.
-Biggest childhood crush: Reece Witherspoon (I cover some not by name because they are not known but who were I was around in my book).
-Politics- I keep politics out of motivation and do not mention politics because I am all about getting along. But I am a conservative Republican, and I do support Donald J. Trump and JD Vance. I am also a fan of Donald Trump Jr, as well as Kristi Noem, Pete Hagseth, and Rick Perry. Also like Ben Shapiro, Michael Knowles, Sean Hannity, Glenn Beck, also liked what Charlie Kirk stood for and did. I am not for any extremist group, I believe extremist are not good, the Bible even talks about moderation in aspects of life as well.
-Faith- Catholic, I believe there is a purgatory and that is where those go going to Heaven before Heaven to have their sins reversed on them before Heaven, why I watch my sins. Favorite priest Father Clayton, Father Joe Kramer (he was my all-time favorite). Favorite priest to listen to that I have not been to their mass and been around like the other two, is Father Corapi!
-Favorite prayer: Haily Mary-No, I do not worship Mary but she can intervene and ask for God's mercy sometimes and at my judgement day, I will want all in my favor.
-Favorite flight- was flight home from getting private pilot's license and taking my parents flying as a freshly certified private pilot.
-Favorite team roping-USTRC Midwest regional finals at the casino indoor arena in Mulvane, Ks, or the team roping at rope the Rockies affiliate in Topeka, Ks
-Fan of the Sean Ryan show, especially after watching lots prior to going to Ibogaine, since I did not have anyone to talk with who had done the ibogaine experience I watched many shows on him as well as that was who my mom as well as family friends Joe and Ashley and Brad Vicki. My mom mentions his stuff all the time, I am a big fan of his show he has the freaks of freaks on there. Some really impressive people and high up people on there.
-Favorite color: purple and orange
-Am a big supporter of Ambio Life Sciences, they really did lots of good stuff with me there with the ibogaine that took effect months later for me.
-Grateful patriot of America: I am grateful and appreciate the sacrifices our men and women made to serve and protect this nation, and many who joined the military joined at a young age when I was at college, or partying, or team roping or rodeoing or flying while they made sacrifices and were sent overseas or off to war, and did not get the chance to have a young adulthood. Or ones that lost limbs, fighting for our rights to be free and have freedom as Americans to walk freely down the streets. I am thankful for those who fought for this nation, I am also thankful for those who decide politics happens to be for them. Personally, I wouldn't want that weight on my soul.
-Favorite sound, random sound- Sound of leather creaking saddles as ride and the leather creaking and squeaking as ride and can hear leather rubbing on leather and my jeans and legs as I ride.
-Favorite smell-Horses, horse barns with manure, coffee, freshly cooked corned beef and cabbage (one of my favorites especially around Saint Patrick's Day), I like smell of myself after shower and vercace cologne on, like smell of the dogs after they have been groomed, smell of insense and smell of candles at church, also smell of catholic churches, smell of religion.
-Favorite taste: a drink of coffee after a bite of steak with horse radish or a drink of coffee with a pinch of Copenhagen in. Those flavors are good flavors to me. Also, first cup of coffee of the day literally putting this on here to break the ice y'all.
-Favorite extended family memory: Dinner with my mom and dad with my uncle Chris and Aunt Janet (who's awesome) at Chateau on the Lake and my uncle drove his sport yacht over there and my aunt Janet drank lots of martinis and wanted to the boat back. The whole night was lighthearted fun-loving enjoyable family time. I miss hanging out with them.
-Good mood secrets- coffee and prayer, also sometimes a brief half hour workout.
-Favorite memory with my dad: first flight took him on as a private pilot, or the first time my dad saw me win money at a team roping the excitement on his face and rewarding feeling I got inside. My favorite memory with him there is many, some were watered down and tainted by my delusions at some point, which hurts but he knows and knew. I do have many memories with him flight on the fourth of July was memorable.
-Favorite time with grandparents: One was picking sweet corn and shucking sweet corn at Bob's with my grandpa Lawarence. The other was a fishing trip, in Canada with my other grandpa John. I wish my grandpa Lawerence could see me writing now and having a book coming out by this Christmas. I wish my grandpa Lawerence could see me going after motivation and writing career. He would be shocked that was what I went after, after flying was career goal for so long.
-Most memorable memory with mom: When I took my first steps when they did not know if I would walk again or not and she cried happy tears of joy.
-Mommas boy, I am not even going to deny I am a momma's boy, a huge momma's boy has been since birth.
-Most memorable family time, was family reunions with my uncle Chris and great uncle Frankie. Growing up was always a mommas boy, I am still massively a mommas boy I will openly admit. I was close with my dad real close but not as close as was to my mom. Was not close to any cousins or anything, was close to some when I was younger like Leslie and Michael. But not been around them for years, was not close with either side grandparents really as much as would've liked to of been. I really wish my grandpa Lawerence could have lived to see me do lots of stuff I saw through and got done after I got older, as well as my mamo grandma on my mom's side. I will not ever forget how much Lysol my grandpa Lawerence felt the need to use in hotel rooms, because he was afraid of germs. Also, the limousine time, or the evening with my aunt Janet and uncle Chris with my parents on the lake and hearing my uncle's story's. Also, the time my other uncle was hammered on scotch but was kidding around about floating on a magically rock swimming in 200 feet of water then he ripped it out and started sinking. He was wasted that day, was hard not being thrown back on the boat by him that day, he kept trying to toss everyone up on the boat. How I miss and love my uncle Phil though, with all my heart. My grandpa Lawerence taking all of us grandkids to Walmart for midnight doughnuts fresh with milk was something he was big on, I can clearly remember. I can also remember my grandpa Lawerence used to doze off while driving constantly. Or my extended family member Bill a great uncle who kept beers stashed in every compartment of his pontoon boat because he struggled with alcoholism. Really had alcoholics on both sides, I for sure got that genetically. My mom went through wild phases as I did, my dad did to but he cut it off a lot sooner in life than my mom and I did.
- Career goal prior to motivation and writing: airline/corporate pilot, was more corporate pilot I was working on commercial at time of my accident building flight time. That was goal since age 6 and 14, only thing contemplated before that was landscape designer, but obviously that's not anything I wanted to do when I got older.
-Favorite childhood memories that used to make me feel ten feet tall and bulletproof: Going places with my cousin Michael, or my uncle Chris. I always felt cool and ten feet tall and bulletproof around both of them.
-Biggest fears are God, snakes, and going to hell, as well as not prospering. Those are my biggest fears in life. I am literally terrified of snakes, prior to my accident I either took care of them with a shovel or ran from them
-Also only putting this on here for people with spinal cord injuries and brain injuries to feel more comfortable reaching out. Also to help people kind of know me a little personally.
-As you can see above in my personal pictures, I for sure have had a large life, diverse life, great childhood, and still have a bright future. Some of the pictures above in my personal pictures are me simply smiling as I win another day over depression and alcohol. Both of those were almost the death of me, that's why I share this personal pictures, and personal likes.
-I also share personal likes and personal pictures especially pictures showing I have been blessed throughout my life, there is much more I need to do with my life, I am working on in motivation. But I have been blessed after my accident as well. Do not want anyone reading my story feeling my life's sad or more tragic than what has been with accident. Also don't want anyone thinking I not a normal person with a widespread of normal likes despite my spinal cord injury and brain injury, I am still normal. Also, with some of my likes, I say why I like that way no one takes wrong.
Prayer section, listed below are some prayers I like to often say.
OUR FATHER
our father, who art in heaven; hallowed be thy name; thy kingdom come; thy will be done on this earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread; and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us, and lead us not into temptation; but deliver us from evil. Amen
THE APOSTLES CREED
I believe in God, the father almighty, creator of heaven and earth. I believe in Jesus Christ, his only son, our Lord. He was conceived by the power of the Holy Spirit and born of the virgin Mary. He suffered under Pontius Pilate, was crucified, died, and was buried. He descended to the dead, on the third day rose again. He ascended into heaven and is seated at the right hand of the father. He will come again to judge the living and the dead. I believe in the Holy Spirit, the holy Catholic Church, the communion of saints, the forgiveness of sins the resurrection of the body, and the life evrlasting. Amen
HAIL MARY
hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee; blessed art thou among women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death. Amen
According to Catechism here is a prayer for breaking curses: In the name of the Lord Jesus Christ of Nazareth, by the power of his cross, his blood and his resurrection, I take authority over all curses, hexes, spells, voodoo practices, witchcraft assignments, satanic rituals, incantations and evil wishes that have been sent my way, or have passed down the generational bloodline. I break their influence over my life by the power of the risen Lord Jesus Christ, and I command these curses to go back to where they came from and be replaced with a blessing. I ask forgiveness for and renounce all negative inner vows and agreements that I have made with the enemy, and i ask you Lord Jesus to release me from any bondage they may have held in me. I claim your shed blood over all aspects of my life, relationships, ministry endeavors and finances. I thank you for your enduring love, your angelic protection, and for the fullness of your abundant blessings.
A prayer to Saint Michael the Archangel: Saint Michael the Archangel, defend us in battle. Be our protection against the wickedness and snares of the devil; May God rebuke him, we humbly pray; And do thou, o Prince of the Heavenly Host, by the power of God, thrust into hell Satan and all evil spirits who prowl about the world for ruin of souls. Amen.
Prayer petition list, prayers I etched in my heart and I feel are good to pray for.
1)world peace, and peace as a nation
2)for anyone struggling and the less fortunate, anyone needy and anyone who's hurting from anything.
3)souls in purgatory
4)all world leaders and people that hold high power in the world for them to do what is right, and right by God.
5)abused children, and abandoned children
6)abused animals and abandoned animals
7)anyone in an ambulance or life flight, flight at time speaking and for the best of best for them and that things won't be to messed up.
8)for homeless veterans and for veterans in need especially, but anyone in need or struggling.
9)also for anyone scared to try something new, because its different than what they have known, to be courageous and have faith and don't shy away from pursuing your goals and aspirations.
10)for people to know the way things used to be don't have to be the way they are forever or now at all. As you are aware of numerous phases and times throughout anyone's life over a certain age.
11)Happy homes again and happy family's again
12) something else that hit me, happens to be prayers for all the children who aren't getting a chance to be a normal child and live and have normal dreams. I was more than blessed in that aspect
13)for there to be end of animal abuse and child abuse
14)for anyone who is on the rock bottom floor of depression seeing no way out, I pray those, and say those are good prayers on intention list. These are etched in my heart.
15) For anyone in any spinal cord injury group on Facebook as well as brain injury group, especially those going through further major operations, or ones I see where their spouse has left them or anything of the such. I pray for these people, that they will find happiness and pull through.
16) Gayla and her pain, her emotional pain, physical pain, mental pain, and for all around healing all over of her mind body and spirit.
17)For some of the guys I really have the utmost respect for and have looked up to for years some of them. May their health improve and God give them comfort, Scott, Brian, Mike, Bill, all are etched in my heart of people to pray for. As well as Faye, Juanita, and Maryanne, Brad W.
18) I pray for my family and extended family; may God continue to bless them.
19) For Jo's sister-in-law who has stage 4 cancer, that she may beat cancer and win the fight against cancer to return to whatever it is she loves to do.
20) For Father Clayton, he's a good priest I pray for him and his wellbeing overall.
Proverbs 3;5-6; "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight paths".
Proverbs 11:14 "Where there is no guidance, a people falls, but in an abundance of counselors there is safety"
Psalm 40:2-3 (really good one for me coming off alcohol to pray) " He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand".
John 7;37-39 Rivers of living water On the last and greatest day of the feast, Jesus stood up and exclaimed, "Let anyone who thirst come to me and drink. Whoever believes in me, as scripture says: "Rivers of living water will flow from within him. He said this in reference to the Spirit that those who came to believe in him were to receive. There was, of course, no Spirit yet, because Jesus had not yet been glorified.
Saint Dymphna (saint for mental distress as Anothy to lost things and Francis to animals)
:O God, we humbly beseech you through your servant, St. Dymphna, who sealed with her blood the love she bore you, to grant relief to those who suffer from mental afflictions and nervous disorders. St. Dymphna, martyr of purity, pray for us.
Saint Elizabeth Anne Seton prayer: (prayer for new beginnings as I am out on with my motivation and was after my accident) God, you raised up St. Elizabeth in your church so that she might instruct others in the way of salvation. Grant us so to follow Christ after her example that we may reach You in the company of our brothers. Amen.
Saint Francis prayer: (for animals and pets): In Your infinite wisdom, Lord God, when You created the Universe, You blessed us all living creatures. We especially thank You for giving us our pets who are our friends and who bring us so much joy in life. Their presence very often helps us get through trying times. Kindly bless my pet. May my pet continue giving me joy and remind me of your power. May we realize that as our pets trust us to take care of them, so we should trust you to take care of us, and in taking care of us, and in taking care of them we share in your love for all your creatures. Enlighten our minds to preserve all endangered species so that we may continue to appreciate all of your creations. Grant this through Christ our Lord.
Some of my flying pictures as private pilot, I was not multi rated
Above pictured, is my mentor for flying has and was my mentor for flying since age 14. He was an airline pilot, first officer on DC-9, and MD-80's as well as flight engineer on DC-10's, and captain on Boeing 737-300's.He helped me out getting started with flying, he has answered lots of questions along the way.
Family pictures throughout the years.
Yes, I go see my dad buried at the cemetery, sometimes lay a diet coke on the grave and sit and talk in my mind in peace to him, and to God. I pray to God out there, but talk with my dad, yes sometimes go at dark in early morning. Yes, it is a little spooky being in a cemetery at dark by myself, but God is with me. Plus, I believe once the mind has had mental health battles before, it has opened the door open to the dark side. The dark side have to ward off, whenever hits but sometimes feels like have to hit a little dark to spark all the light. I would suggest anyone fighting any kind of mental battles, whenever you're fighting them, ask yourself are you going to give into the struggle (Satan), or are you going to push through and stick close to God and not lose control of stuff running of the rails because you're fighting an internal battle at that point between good and bad, God and Satan! I look at insecurities that way as well, if insecurities are taking over, than that means Satan is winning. Also, I know words are only words, but they still carry weight and as the Bible states everything starts with a thought then action and then into words that can be used like spears. I also encourage people to watch their language, trust me I used to cuss like a sailor, every other word year back out of my mouth lots of times or certain was the f word or other cuss words. I really have watched my cussing, originally for the writing, not wanting anyone young reading something they shouldn't on my stuff. But then, I got to deep diving into my spirituality more, my soul more, my mind more, and realized what a sin happens to be and really toned that down. The question is not is God real or not, the answer is yes God is absolutely real! The question happens to be, will he approve of the life we've lived and sins we have committed. Along with, doing the right thing, and living up life to the most. God literally looks down on us from Heaven, and he has to be shaking his head in disbelief with all the feuds that could simply be agreed out on, and smoothed out on. As well as all the times people misunderstand and write off completely, this happens all the time with people. I am all about forgive and forget, seriously everyone's human and makes mistakes. For people that struggle with an explosive temper like I used to have prior to Ibogaine, read psalm out of the Bible, when they talk about, please God drag me out of this anger and protect me from your wrath.
Here are before and after pictures of my weight when I lost weight on and off numerous times throughout years. Now stay between 190-205 pounds. I am going to go lighter for personal reason though.
Some before and after of my weight me at biggest and me at my smallest and where I am at now, and for the women pictured above were two were most serious about my accident and I was overweight both of those relationships. I was about 50 pounds overweight at that time from my ideal healthy weight, good looking size, I am shocked the one stayed with me so long, I acted like an idiot the whole time and was overweight and not at my good-looking size. The other one, I was overweight for that woman and was not at my attractive size, I was 50 pounds overweight drinking like a fish for both of those different women. One of them treated me the best out of any girl before, and I did not treat her good, I did not deserve her at the time. The other one, I was struggling with brain injury stuff and was not my true self. She had to be more than annoyed by my behavior at the time, she had to feel like she was settling for my lifestyle at the time. For one of them was around 260, the other I was around 245, now I am back to my natural healthy weight of 190, I am still going to drop another ten pounds and work on trim workouts. Looking back overtime, I am repentant of sins did and way treated them, especially the one I did not even deserve to spend the night with her, besides days or even one day with her. The other girl, I am really sorry to and about, being a complete idiot the whole time she dated me, also for being immature at the time, as well as hitting an emotional topic about myself that hit a nerve then I kept drinking more. Then after getting back home drinking more and throwing up all over the bed, followed an argument with my dad. Ahh how the drinking and brain injuries along with PTSD and depression made things hard for quite some time. I regret messing with their emotions and feelings and am sorry from the heart and want them to be aware of that as well. The brain injuries, depression, PTSD, and overall un comfort made me a monster almost for a while to be around. I wish they knew was going places now, and the way I acted back then was uncalled for and I am sorry for, and sorry for making them feel unwanted, they were but I sent every wrong signal wasn't interested because of my brain injury at the time, along with my drinking and overall being put out that airline pilot career goal at that time was probably gone before officially gone. Something else I did back then that was really low; was one girl would text others in front of her when dating even when was spending nights and days in each other's company. Many weeknights and weekends, I really hope they know I am a better man now! I kick myself, because could of had a lot better time, not drinking but at the time most the time I was always drunk whenever was not at therapy or doing extra work. This happened to be to beginning of a dark phase I entered and with depression after a while. Needless to say both women treated me great, especially the one. I didn't deserve them, or to be in their company, miss them yes, changed back to natural me and not a spineless d bag anymore and going places now, a lot more than where I was. Now I am going places again in life, like I was having with flying prior to my accident, as well as team roping.
With my weight, I like my looks under 210 but really 205 and lighter, I prefer to be around 190-195 pounds or lighter now, however. I find being lighter, I can focus more, get more accomplished, be seen much better, have things much better, feel a lot happier, all the way around be in a much better mindset and bright outlook when I am under a certain size. My ideal size is really weighing less than 205, my face and entire body looks different in a good way the way I am supposed to look, the way looked in my youth when watched weight.
Here was 265 pounds with the cowboy hat on, and 190 pounds ball cap on. What I have been keeping for months and my natural normal size. Below is a comparison of drinking me, to me in sobriety
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I am 1 year 24 days sober without one single drink, I'm showing this comparison of when I drank to other picture is me in sobriety and improved appearance. As well do not look like a goof ball. the drinking picture was taken in a bar in Aggieville, Manhattan Kansas. I am also using this to really show how unappealing alcohol happens to be compared to no alcohol.
I do cover weight a lot, because I personally have felt negative effects on my personal life due to being overweight through certain phases. I cover, lots of that in my book at editor, then going to publisher. But in the meantime, I am writing about the negative consequences of not watching weight and size and letting myself go for a while when I quit putting effort into looks as in caring about being under certain size. My face even looks different under a certain size. Also try to encourage readers who are younger, to not make my mistakes. I also want to help people from later down the road, struggling with mental battles I battle with fearing certain people are around from certain phases because of how people would see me like old phases. That was a delusion, I battled they were not, but I do not want anyone having embarrassed unproud phases they are embarrassed of. As well, concentration is much, much better under a certain size, my mind works better under a certain size because I am not walking everywhere feeling like garbage. You can see I rodeoed at K-State, I was on their team/club and rodeoed there. That was no big deal, and those were not the good years of my team roping or rodeoing, 2013,2014, and 2015 and would be currently if not for accident. Also, the entire time at K-State I could not stand my appearance and knew needed to get under a certain size again. My favorite rodeos were URA rodeos, United rodeo association rodeo to go to, but I mainly team roped at USTRC team roping's and jackpots and heeled at rodeos. I should have been more focused on grades, which would have meant I should have stayed home for a couple years, matured got more college under my belt, gotten under a certain size again, worked on my team roping more, then went off to K-State. I was not able to rope in the home rodeo of K-State when I was rodeoing there, like I was able to at other schools' rodeos first semester, I was out on academic probation second semester from not being in the right spot academically. Concentration is obviously much better under a certain size, see when I was over a certain size every class hall building for classrooms I would walk in, I would be thinking to myself they're thinking the cow has arrived. Thinking, mental clarity, the wake-up feeling, the going to bed feeling all feelings all the way around are better under a certain size.
Meet my dad, big Mike Christiansen
He was born November 3rd 1958; he graduated Kansas State University in 1981 with dual degrees one in animal science, the other in agricultural economics. He thrived on duck hunting as a young child, and as a young adult he was top ten in world duck calling years back to back . After college he worked for Dekalb pig farm in Liberal, Kansas. After Dekalb the hog farm he went to work at Iowa Beef Packing IBP in Emporia, Kansas as cattle sales manager. He also worked on a ranch at the time he was in Emporia, with some of his college friends, and friends he met after college. He used to work on a ranch with them, as well for IBP. Then IBP transferred him to Pasco, Washington where my dad fell in love with the pacific northwest. He fell in love with the pacific northwest, where he did lots of roping up there. He started team roping in college, where he continued to progress in team roping, he got into bull dogging a little bit up in the pacific northwest. He also got into being really fit in pacific northwest, he used to run two miles and lift as well as do interment fasting eating twice a day hours apart. He also was loving flying back and forth to corporate meetings on IBP corporate jets, private jets they had a Falcon 10 and 20 as well as King Air 90. He returned home to manage and take care of his parent's business at the time Christiansen Steel Fabrication and Erection, that was bought out and went out of business long ago. My dad went with business, to Bobs ornamental Iron, in downtown Kansas City, Missouri. Then he left and was at Southwest Steel for a while out in Bonner Springs, Kansas, from there he left where he spent years and years at Select Steel as project manager, estimator and business development. My mom and dad were married in 1989, I was born in 1991, where my dad became a proud father. My dad passed away September 17th, 2022, of Lung, Liver, and melanoma cancer. Also, my dad spoke fluent sarcasm as well and if he knew he struck a nerve, and he cut deep. Well then people, my dad would dump the floodgate then. My dad also had a warped sense of humor; my mom does to I got that honest about my accident stuff. My dad was a gentle giant, unless angry. If my dad was angry, he had one scary temper, and loud! He was big on self-accountability and for making certain he instilled in me, as did my mom a good work ethic since youth. My dad's biggest dislikes were liars, cheaters, lazy people, ungrateful people, besides that the Denver Broncos and Kansas Jayhawks. My dad's biggest loves were his family, me and my mom, as well as our animals he loved animals, besides that two biggest loves were Kansas State Wildcats and Kansas City Chiefs, as well as love of God. My dad quoted often, in my lifetime "you can't lean on a shovel and pray for a hole" term meaning if you want something, yes pray about it as God will assist you, but you actively must be proactive about taking action making those things happens. One of my dad's favorite books was "The Snows of Kilimanjaro" by Ernest Hemingway. Another book my dad really loved, was Lonesome Dove by Larry McMurtry
Psalm 105;1 God's fidelity to the promise, Give thanks to the Lord, invoke his name, make known among the people his deeds
As my dad was a huge contributor to my accident recovery and to my entire life here is a piece of my website dedicated to my dad.
LaRee Christiansen (my mom and current teammate)
Born June 6th, 1965; to Lawerence and Fredia Smith. She grew up in Wyandotte and Basehor; she graduated from Basehor high school as well as Kansas City Kansas Community College with her nursing degree for LPN. She worked as a nurse, mixing Chemo for a long time, then she worked for the school in special needs rooms, not time one was only aiding people, but second time worked with special needs people. Then she owned and ran a successful cleaning business, where she cleaned houses and churches.
She has been my number one supporter and cheerleader for anything have done. She has been my number one supporter to pick me up dust me off and tell me keep going. She has never once made me feel guilty for all sacrifices she has made, throughout my lifetime. I feel that on my own, but she does everything a loving caring mother does. She's a really great mom! My mom's LaRee's biggest dislikes: lazy, rude, disrespectful, liberals, liars. My mom's biggest loves: Her family, God, her country, classic rock, cooking. My mom, stands firm against the coddling generation, also against participation trophy generations. But my mom is all about getting along, but she gets riled up about politics. She has quite a bit of MAGA attire, she also bought me Kristi Noem's book to read, "Not my first rodeo". I started to begin that book at the time of my dads sudden passing and for some reason haven't picked up and read completely though, her one brother who was always great at everything sounds like a hoot though. I like to tell my mom, and used to dad about book I read, my dad used to share lots of Hemingway he used to read.
My mom has gifted me, much Maga gear and Valhalla project gear I wear the Valhalla project gear, but watch the Maga gear with my motivation, try keeping politics out of everything. My mom has lots of Trump attire. But my mom lives for politics at times, and dogs that's a hugs favorite of hers but that family when I say family that means dogs and horses to, I am much more bonded with some of my animals than family members, as well as my mom. My dad was that to, grew into immediate family and animals and kind of reclosed there. Need to branch back out a little.
Proverbs 15;27-28, The fear of the Lord is a fountain of life, that a man may avoid the snares of death. In many subjects lies the glory of the king but if his people are few, it is the princes ruin.
Workouts, I am going to begin showing workout motivational clips.
As you can see, most through my team roping my weight was out of control and was all over the place. The pictures above where I'm not at a competition but standing next to other cowboys. They are some of the toughest team ropers, I wasn't competing against them.
In my workouts at the home gym, I will show, roman crunches, boxing bag, bench press, incline bench press, dumbbell workouts. Basically, a lot of trimming stuff, battle ropes also. This time around, doing workout clips I am not going to watch protein numbers being up and not drink whey protein, also go light weight high reps. I will be working on trimming, that will mean lots of cardio on battle ropes as well as boxing bag. Normally when I am doing trim, I do overall body in my personal workouts, upper, core, lower. As well as some cardio walks, with my motivation I am showing what happiness looks like, what overcoming obstacles to still live, as well as showing a good happy healthy lifestyle.
As of now pictures above I am around 192 pounds, wearing my 32x34 jeans. While doing trimming exercises, I won't go heavy, I will go light and high reps and fit back into all my 30x34's not only one pair. I am currently going drop another ten pounds.
Clearing of any misconceptions, where stand politically and faithfully. As I am now feeling like important with book to be out by Christmas and seeing a fellow Christian attacked on a spinal cord injury group, for posting a bible verse.
-Catholic and Christian
-Republican and conservative but no extremist is good not right or left, because through one of my darkest times in life my best friend at the time and guy who hung out with lots and there wasn't anything there at all was a guy who was gay. I'm still completely straight, didn't effect that at all.
-Believe people can agree to disagree and call it good, if not don't force it.
-Also, I do not have anything against women, by being conservative and Catholic. There are many things' women are better suited for, as well better built for and have tendency's more nurturing towards. However, I do not feel like there needs to be this tension battle between men and women.
_I am not racist either, don't see color either there is good and bad amongst all walks of life, also been friends before with people of different skin color, cannot overgeneralize and blanket statements.
-I am a proud American, I am proud to be born in America, I'm proud of my heritage Danish and Irish that have a lot of in me.
-I am proud of my cowboy and flying roots planted deep in the ground.
-Also, I do not worship Mary, or saint or angels, but I pray to them, to put in a good word in God's ear. We all need a little favor in our favor at times, praying to Mary's like that. Plus what she put herself through happens to be especially hard, but brutal, that would have had to of been a killer. She did that for our savior to be born and then to be mistreated and crucified. Excuse me y'all I believe she deserves some respect!
-To the non-believers, who may think I am coming across left field talking about God, Jesus, Mary, Saints, Angels, Heaven, Purgatory, Hell. I would encourage you to pick up scripture or a bible and give it an honest go and clear your mind of anything perceived in your mind. Then look at all the close calls, or close times that things could've been horrible, but they weren't. Or times you did not think you could get through, who gave you that strength I know I am a cowboy a team roper a tough guy, but there has been times I know I didn't have the toughness or the strength if not be for an outside factor, that outside factor in my life is God.
-Live my life in current day forward, taking only good from the past and building currently for bright future, not a live in past type. Also do not get to hund up, on what should of been when I can do things better in my current life that directly effects, rather than worry about things that are already past times and gone.
-I may come across really confident at times, I am confident in what I do and say. But trust me, I'm a really insecure person really.
-I like to turn the rosary on, Spotify while I sleep after saying a prayer I awake the next morning to a great day.
-Animals names- horses are two bays are big bays Cherokee, little bays Pablo, paint horse Jake. Dogs, brown and white mostly Australian Shepard Peyton, other Australian Shepard Dally. Black lab named Doc. My horses before these and while had some of these were Gizmo and Bart and JR who was everyone in family's horse. My dads horses were Chigger and Cody.
-Also when came to relationships, I planned on meeting someone through flying or team roping, but mainly flying in my career, not while at school. That was how planned on meeting someone, goal by now was to be married with kids except my accident through a wrench in that. But plans changed with my accident and after for awhile, goal prior to my accident was moving to Texas for more team roping rodeo, fresh set of people along with working on my instrument rating after I was a private pilot already. I planned on working on an oil field there, and rodeoing and flying lots there, but my accident through a wrench in that. But, in long run I ended up staying on a very nice piece of property with nice house and set up here at Fontana, Kansas.
The dogs (furry family members, all are still here but Reagan the Black and white border collie)
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