New Counselor

Hey everyone, as I have made known and I am not ashamed anymore to say I see a counselor. There is not anything wrong with seeing a counselor, it's completely alright to see a counselor and get the help needed. Even if that requires medication for assistance as well, that alright.

Starting out this morning, I will be honest y'all I was quite scared starting this morning off. I finally found a great counselor I had with the last one, and she got a promotion which she most certainly deserved. However, I was needing to find a new counselor one I could get in and see again.

This new counselor is great, she put me at ease personality wise as the last one did right away and went straight to laid back feeling. There, also happens to be the whole feeling like need to get accustomed to their personality and stuff like that before disclosing certain stuff. However today, I took my tablet with me which hasn't been charged or anything since I was drinking over 1 year, 1 month, 22 days ago and saw things that really put me out.

I quickly deleted things that do not belong in my life, or that type of that stuff in my life and to cleanse my tablet of unholiness. Also, please God forgive me for those times, also this new counselor like the last one, completely understood. Today was one more reminder on why I do not drink anymore and will not drink anymore as well as living a holy good quality life, alcohol was having me throwing myself away and acting like a slob at times.

With that being said one the quick flash up, on one of the many reasons I do not drink anymore, I discussed with my counselor my new treatment plan. Also, focused on my overcoming alcohol and being sober. Bu also talked about how I no longer have major depressive disorder and that classification got lifted today, that made me feel good. Then on depression screening, was minimal depression therefore I am so much farther along this year than where I was this time last year. This time last year, neither my mom nor I saw this of me being at spot I'm at now spiritually, emotionally, mentally, motivationally and my mother son relationship back to being normal.

You know some of this hardest part has been all the lost-out years on, and lost time slipped past and slipped by that's gone and there is no getting back really. That's the cold hard facts of life, also that two of my passions are gone and all the further progression in those aspects I missed out on. Also, added onto to all the personal relationships I did not build in college because of my size at the time, and needing to be under a certain size again, was not happy with my size or appearance there at all or really any college to be honest. I missed out on building friendships because of that as well, and because of my drinking.

Also, when comes to friendships and relationships, I am a conservative however that doesn't mean have not had things or will not have anything to do with anyone from opposite party. Seriously the two things that are deciding factors though, mostly are religion and politics, I am a Catholic as well as conservative, but I believe we as Christians need to be uniting and not trying to fight each other losing sight of who our enemy's, not to mention I believe lots of the enemy happens to come from within.

That enough about religion and politics and like to keep that out of all stuff but wanted to throw that out there from a motivational and writing perspective (not published yet will be around Christmas), but throwing that in here as where I come from personally a little bit.

Oftentimes throughout counseling I found it so true to do what the counselor and I talked about my mind and what my mind does, which happens to be common for the average mind to ruminate on stuff, and have the same thought over and over and kind of naw on it.

You know, y'all I was originally scared of this change in counselors, until felt and saw an opportunity to make this part of motivation, and incorporate into my motivation. As well as to, bring the people that have following me along for the ride. This has not been the dullest of rides for some of y'all like my mom, she has been on one wild ride, as well as my dad was up until his passing. I wish immensely we got better years together from 2021-2022 till his passing up until a couple of months prior when mended fences.

I believe in God, the Father almighty, creator of heaven and earth. I believe in Jesus Christ, His only Son, our Lord. He was conceived by the power of the Holy Spirit, and born of the Virgin Mary. He suffered under Pontius Pilate, was crucified, died, and was buried. He descended to the dead. On the third day He rose again. He ascended into heaven, and is seated at the right hand of the Father. He will come again to judge the living and the dead. I believe in the Holy Spirit, the holy Catholic Church, the communion of saints, the forgiveness of sins, the resurrection of the body, and the life everlasting. Amen.

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee; blessed art thou among women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death .Amen.

Much appreciated.

Kyle Christiansen