March 31st 2026

hey y'all, hope everyone's doing well, it's been quite the emotional day! you could say, ive been struggling some emotional today, what I'm so frustrated with myself about happens to be its at such an exciting time in my life I'm battling all these demons. i am battling lots of stuff, especially traumatic brain injury stuff and unwanted thoughts and getting my mind unstuck as well as trusting the positive thoughts.

I need to stick and stay with positive energy, i cannot allot for negative energy in my life. anyway, my book My Mountain to Climb is out now on Amazon for sale. I am also doing some motivational speeches as well. last Saturday March 28th, 2026, I did a Brain Injury Seminar Panel Speech. this was where I sat with two other traumatic brain injury survivors as well as warrior. they as well spoke of their accident, as well as their recovery and life after recovery.

This life has not been easy for any of us, especially for those who have battled traumatic brain injuries. now, y'all all and I mean all aspects and having all aspects career, relationships, friendships, family, are all normal aspects of my life. however, after traumatic brain injury number one that happened late 2013. I started to battle a lot of stuff and think a lot of things and suffer from delusions and paranoia.

I will admit, as I write this I freaked out for a short minute about being shot by mom (she would never shoot me, that would never cross her mind), yes that really went through my mind. when i voiced this to my mom, she laughed because at ridiculous it sounds. it sounded Ludacris when i said out loud. however, after a TBI, some of these worries get some intense and real and vivid. that quite literally y'all, you can feel the worries and frights happening. for they freak me out, i run scared at times through the night it feels like.

As i sit and type, y'all i caved to Satan's attacks and i am sorry to God for those times. y'all, these attacks from Satan are heavy and real y'all. i don't know if i can survive much more of these Satan attacks. For St. Michael the Archangel defend me in battle against Satan and protect the good the innocent from the evil. Please dear God, protect me and my mom and Jesus continue walking with me. Mary, please lead me in good directions and help things be good asking for your intercession Mary!

St. Franics please protect the animals, protect Pablo, Jake, Doc and Peyton, as well as my mom. As well protect my heart God, protect my mom's heart God. please defend us in battle against Satan. we have been fighting this battle for oh so long, me and my mom are stumbling off one another bouncing off one another falling into the next day.

The next sunrise happens to be about the only hope we feel at times in times of darkness. However, there happens to be some lightness and brightness and shininess. it goes like this; here's how good things have been here lately.

At Topeka, Ks things went great at the capital at pie day for the legislatures sold more books and got my name out there more. As well, I'm advocating for brain injuries. y'all, we can live and need a normal life after a brain injury. only because we have damage on our brains doesn't mean where broken people. because simply we had bleeding on the brain, doesn't mean we are nuts, insane or uncapable of living normally.

Now, with this being said we certainly have our battles, and we know we are hard to deal with and live with. As well, we take things out of context at times and feel like everything's an attack or derogatory and meant as a jab towards us. i personally didn't feel that way because i felt special, nah i felt that way more because i felt experimented on. there have been some hard battles for me and my mom.

Since my mom will not voice her concerns or worries, and she doesn't see a counselor, i will write a little of her pain into my stuff that way it's out there. sometimes you simply have to get it out, that all get it out and move on. moving onwards and upwards, how Saturday was such a great day y'all for me and mom at the Brain Injury Seminar at St. Joseph medical center in Missouri. this was with a James and Ramoni on the panel.

This was a very good event, as well i did another speech a while back at a brain injury meeting in Paola, Ks. There has been y'all, much and much pain for me and my mom by this TBI. My dad didn't know how to handle TBI's, and quite honestly my dad didn't have any patience for anyone struggling mentally to get to the nut cutting of things. He was an extremely kind, gentle soul with a huge heart, but he rode me hard. He had zero and mean zero patience for my brain injury battles.

However, thank to my dad being like this, it made me think quick again after a brain injury. however sometimes yes, I rush to saying things or thinking things, I'm fully guilty of that. However, as I write weary and tired with my mom nearby weary and tired as well. She has busted her butt, literally she's been working physically at the post office hard physical labor.

That's the work my mom prefers according to her, I know she's in pain. i see it on her daily with her arm and her knee. My mom, stand by me I stand by my mom. Things have been so hard at times, I'm glad and proud to have my motivation going, as well as be getting my book known about and selling books. my book, has been selling books, on Amazon it's been selling as well as at Seminar and meetings as well.

I am so proud of my mom I can barely stand it, she makes me quite proud to call my mom and to be around. My mom happens to be one of the strongest lady's i have been around and had contact with.

Our Father

Our Father, who art in heaven; hallowed be thy name; Thy kingdom come; Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread; and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us and lead us not into temptation; but deliver us from evil. Amen.

Hail Mary

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee, blessed art thou among women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death. Amen.

Glory Be To The Father

Glory be to the father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit. As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end. Amen.

Hail, Holy Queen

Hail, Holy Queen, Mother of Mercy, our life, our sweetness and our hope, to thee do we cry, poor banished children of Eve; to thee do we send up our sighs, mourning and weeping in this vale of tears; turn, then, most gracious Advocate, thine eyes of mercy towards us, and after this, our exile, show unto us the blessed fruit of thy womb, Jesus. O clement, O loving, O{ sweet Virgin Mary!

Pray for us, O holy Mother of God, that we may be made worthy of the promises of Christ.

The Apostles Creed

I believe in God, the Father almighty, creator of heaven and earth. I believe in Jesus Christ, His only Son, our Lord. He was conceived by the power of the Holy Spirit, and born of the Virgin Mary. He suffered under Pontius Pilate, was crucified, died, and was buried. He descended to the dead. On the third day He rose again. He ascended into heaven, and is seated at the right hand of the Father. He will come again to judge the living and the dead. i believe in the Holy Spirit, the holy Catholic Church, the communion of saints, the forgiveness of sins, the resurrection of t5he body, and the life everlasting. Amen.

Glory to God

Kyle Christiansen