Opaque Lenses to Clear 20/20 Again

The world through opaque lenses can get quite hard and complex at times. It feels as if and felt as if at times I was working with things I couldn't necessarily see. Mind you, obviously I became accustomed with this after all my injuries and recovering from things could not see with eyes.

But y'all, this really all started late 2013 and the beginning of 2014 after Traumatic Brain Injury number one, I then thought that people from my past were trying to prevent me from living all normal aspects and having normal all aspects again. As well, felt they were trying to cap my life off at those times.

Mind you people, those were times I was not myself not my true self or self I am proud of. This came a lot from feeling people were doing all they could be possible to try making things fake, try making hard work in stuff I actually cared about for not anything when I was going places in aspects before I felt like people from school entered and thought I cared about things did not care about. This was a huge problem, for a long-time feeling people were doing this.

For example, y'all last year 2024 was pure toxicity, this past year 2025 has been so good and refreshing. Really turned over the new leaf, flipping the pages forward again now. But now in my career ways.

Have I felt certain people even from my accident were messing with stuff at some times throughout therapy? Yes, that is what pained me as much as did anyone who read my book or will read my book or is reading my book because I mention how good those people were at fixing me back up ready for quality life again.

Now, I know some of those thoughts were delusions, others were my mind going off of past phases and such things such as that.

People, brain injuries are pure hell to deal with at times, I went off the deep end for some time thinking people from my accident turned on me. When come to find out they have still been supportive this entire time, especially with the Minds Matter crew.

As I have mentioned in my book, as well before how much I respect that Danielle who I worked with briefly who really inspired me, as well as I think about her often, especially when walking and all the things she used to ride me about in short time of therapy.

Yes, it came across at time like she was nagging the whole time, but she was also telling me, how she was shocked she was walking a mile, with a spinal cord injury person who she was telling one of her church group therapists about. I was only hitting one mile then, I was hitting 6 miles with Kyle M.

I often think about her riding me, about heel strike, rolling off toes, toes pointed forward and so forth. It appeared at the time she was nagging, but she only saw potential for further recovery and based on her personality, was probably getting excited about that and pushed for more.

I often think about, what Mike Q told me lots of, that was bending knee even though times was working with Mike Q, after base layers foundation walking being laid under me again. When I started out at Minds Matter with Mike Q, I was early on he laid the base layer for further walking.

Then Kyle M, Danielle, Kyle V, and Amy came in for some of them brief, some years work on further form and such things. There was a Jessica from Minds Matter, who was an occupational therapist I worked with shortly after going to Minds Matter. My apologies to her, I was out of it the entire time worked with her.

Later, I worked with Khat H, who was great as well. I battled lots of personal battles throughout times working with her and was struggling, with heavy delusions, attacks from Satan and had to get the devil off me. As well as soul cleansed again, I was battling dark times before seeing Khat for therapy, but it continued in my life up until 2025. Much thank to all the therapists, all were great.

The two therapists from the base layer foundation of my therapy, that cross my mind the most, are one Gretchen, two Adam. One, think of Gretchen lots because I am beyond thankful and grateful to her, but also think about where I would be now if she did not push for me walking out of there and not leaving in a wheelchair.

Also, think of Adam lots out of gratitude about getting me to the cane when he did, and not having me stay with crutches any longer than he felt completely necessary. Also think of Adam lots when he was constantly telling me shoulders up, chest out. He really worked on getting my upper trunk posture back. Later that was strengthened by lots of core exercises at the ozone.

As I discuss in my book "My Mountain to Climb", I am beyond grateful to some of these people.

However, when had opaque lenses, on thinking they were behind messing within my life and preventing things, as well as which I cover this in what I am writing now. Really about all the mental battles have overcome and completely Ludacris delusions at times.

Heck at one time even felt prior to my accident my dad turned on me, these were some hard battles I overcome. Took much fight to overcome, but surrendering myself over to Christ has done wonders.

Thank y'all take care, y'all God bless, Glory to God

Kyle Christiansen