Will God Be Dissappointed on Judgement Day

Fighting to live up to the life, God allowed for me to live by all the blessing he gave to me as well as second chances he gave me. I for certain do not want to be a let down to God, or make him feel like I’m not dragging my own weight. This has been a hard battle, as well as having a life Christ is proud of; which for certain at times I have not lived life as Christ being proud of me even being on my mind.

I will admit, for years back I used to think when I was a child and once again people this comes from a man who was baptized Catholic and has been all my life, been to two Catholic schools and drifted far from religion, keeping spiritual keeping with God. But it was more of like a check in with God, it was like i would pray to him, but start to talk him but feel like i was having to check in because it was a form a discipline and he was punishing me by having me check in.

I will say, this happens to be sad ways i lived for years; i regret those years as well. I was even that way through Catholic school and going to Mass. I loved God, I loved learning about saints and angels and Mary and being priest at times (some were cool at that age, none of the nuns were really strict) but I dreaded sometimes going to mass in school.

I really honestly can say I dread Catholic Mass until Father Joe Kramer; Priest had for years at St Phillip Neri Parrish as well as Our Lady of Lourdes and Sacred Heart. He could relate more to the younger generation at that time and was neat guy.

Now, as I got older and became an adult until I became i mid aged adult now at 34 years old. I can say I enjoy talking to God as a friend and Heavenly Father, I feel his pretense often and makes me feel warm.

Where I am going with this to circle back to my original statement, my original thought was this. I don’t wanna get to the end of my life and have God saying you had all these blessings and opportunities. You were given this, and you did this with it? Are you serious Kyle? Fear God on judgement day saying that to me.

Fear that to be on my death bed as well to people, I don’t want to be laying there with my final thoughts, or in my final days thinking of all I should’ve done differently or mistakes I made. As well as things should’ve done along the way, serious at 34 have lots of regrets.

Thank y’all, God bless, glory to God

Kyle Christiansen