Dying Inside Feeling

Oh I really hope y’all do not know what this feels like, I have felt this for years before. Not to mention many things have made that feeling worse over the years, for certain lets for yers thought that I wouldn’t know what it would be like to feel alive again. Ahh, what its like urning and burning for the of living again and enjoying life again. Longing to be lifted out of the burning hell pit many choices and unwanted company pushed me into.

What its like to feel dead and rotting inside to very core of my existence and my being. My foundation crushed, my soul unrectrified, longing for that feeling of living and thriving back. Urning to feel the taste of air on my tongue, that did not taste stale.

Much hurt caused by some unwanted company, many bad choices on my end pushed me into a hell pit for to long for a while.

What it feels like to feel ripped apart and bled out inside like a barbarian, choked by my own veins that pump medicine into my system. My veins everything but cut at times, Lord knows they have been strained to the max, beyond their limits they have been pushed.

My sins, for a long time were killing my future and making my current life stagnat and not flowing forward.

To many times in my life I have fell short and fell on the dagger that almost bled me dry, but when that happens y’all I will say do not continue to bleed out onto those who are trying to help you with your problems by dragging out the dagger.

Do not bleed on the help, y’all this accident will push you to the max, stay strong and don’t break.

Take care y’all God Bless

Kyle Christiansen