How Does God Love Me

I often times ask myself this one and here it goes. goes for one, being 34 unmarried with no kids and focusing mostly on getting my career started, as well as getting relationships back but having serious relationships. Not one-night stands or two nights stands or not serious relationships. About a serious quality relationship, not like doing before, but that was doe to mental place was in as well as accident.

Also hard to think, how does he love me when I made all the mistakes I made. I mean i quit alcohol, pornography, stimulant prescription addiction pop, sweets, energy drinks, marijuana, nicotine vape, cussing, giving my mind a mental release to have dirty thoughts at times because I am watching sins. But seriously, the way I feel God will look at that is I shouldn't have battled those to begin with.

I oftentimes worry about running out of life, as well as thinking things are going to stay how they are whenever going through rough phases, or the way have treated certain people going through rough phases. Sometimes it feels like I am all alone in the dark and lost with no sense of direction or way out of whatever mystic place I found myself in.

Many times, I have found myself in many places in life wondering how got there meaning, what lead to this happening or these people reentering my life. But come to find out that was only a delusion I was stuck in.

Oftentimes, I worry if God loves me or takes me seriously at times on other times; but at heart know he takes me seriously and loves me unconditionally and fiercely.

Oftentimes, seriously wonder how and why God even loves me, or how he remains loving me as much as he does. But he does love me, Satan wants me to believe he doesn't and to think I am unlovable to God.

Take care y'all, God bless, Glory to God

Kyle Christiansen