Bruised and Sore

People this happens to be emotionally speaking, not only physically after all I went through but also emotionally and mentally. Y’all overcoming a traumatic brain injury and living with having had two of them previously, certainly gets harder some days than other days.

Y’all, I will spill this out this way y’all, and this come from the heart. But sometimes, where things once caused emotional pain from hurt, make you gunshot now to be around because you are expecting the worse or you are expecting the old to happen again.

Do not let this eat you alive, I did this for to long yes I had been hurt in abut all aspects before, therefore after second brain injury i was a gunshot walking ticking time bomb mess in many ways. Many ways that were getting beyond hard to deal with and to live with.

No, I am not claiming my road has been harder than anyone else’s. All I am saying is I have had to fight more than most along the way, and fight much in my daily life continue living a good life.

Every morning I start off, with something along the lines like I am not my mistakes, not my accident, not my past, not anyone else nor do I wanna be or think am, not my past phases, today will be a good day.

Make a list this happens to be so freaking helpful making a list of all the things you are grateful for, all your abilities, all your desires, all your accomplishments and ones you are working on.

Also I suggest you finding someone good to talk with in times of pain and hurt, along with severe worry. My quick girlfriend at the time after my accident was of help along with another after to assist my mental state in being able to handle acupuncture along with certain therapy’s because it was getting to the point I plateaued there for some years.

When I broke through the plateaus, that was when that Danielle came into my accident recovery and I started with first Kyle. I did have Danielle as my physical therapist for a while then as a supervisor for a while. She came in, smacked things with cold hard truth, cold hard facts which I appreciated. I was not in my right mental state when had her and honestly wasn’t in my right until over this past year after my traumatic brain injuries.

You may ask, but why do I even try to contiue living life? answer is simple, I still amount to something and old accomplishments tarnish and become dwindled down over the years the farther out you get from them. Not to mention when you cannot do them anymore that is absolutely gut wrenching, there are some hard feelings after a traumatic brain injury.

Cold hard unwanted thoughts after a traumatic brain injury

I am not smart

People think the worst of me

People only see my mistakes

People only dwell on my past they wont see now forward

I am not my past

Things need normal there does not need any problems

I sometimes am scared of my anger (not anymore but was)

Things are not as they appear lots of times.

Thank y’all God bless

Kyle Christiansen