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Y’all I can say, there are many times outside of physical therapy, occupational therapy, speech therapy or cognitive therapy. That you need to be living your life all aspect, still while in recovery but expect serious. After therapy’s, starting out at inpatient rehab my fee time consisted of talking with my mom and dad and some people who were around there. After leaving there, at rehab institute, now Ability KC, when was not in therapy, came home and hung out with my mom and

Alrighty this happens to be a very important aspect to recovery, all the ending that will come to an end and all the new beginnings and old closed chapters. This goes continually throughout life, all the way around. This does not just go for recovery, or therapy at all. Much of this all goes with life all the way around, life that there really are only two options when comes to a person life, either live or die. But, in other aspects there are old endings and new beginnings t

These deep internal cuts inside of me, really people were often caused my myself or my own piss poor choices and head up as mind in Arkansas using zero good judgment at all. I am a smart guy, but have I always made the best of choices, or even halfway wise choices? No, I really have made some real bonehead moves in my life, some real what the freak were you thinking Kyle. Or wake up, there were many times in my life I was not making good choices, sometimes I felt like I was n

Y'all, no way to cut it this happens to be my biggest downfall right here not being in the moment. Oh my, could I kick my own butt for all the times I was not living in the moment and not living. I was stuck, either worrying about past stuff which really all we really need to remember are the good memories and the bad times only what we learned from them nothing else. Also not to dwell on mistakes, falling back worrying on former mistakes about killed my recovery at many time

Now, I know that is as basic common sense as it gets or at least should be. I will admit, have I always abided by this? No, not at all I will admit I have before lied in life, but I believe anyone who's human has lied before. What makes a certain person a liar is a habitual liar who lies about everything and its crystal clear constantly and you can see through their lies. I really feel ashamed of times I have lied, as well as the hurt feeling they had caused. I also know God

These happened lots after my spinal cord injury and traumatic brain injuries, took me much time and ibogaine to rid my body of all the toxic stuff that was plugging up my mind with garbage from unwanted thoughts. Usually, y'all the unwanted thoughts came from my deepest insecurities. Yes, they were either that, or off old embarrassing times I was no longer or no longer in and felt I was still be looked at by many like those times and treated like those times in current life.

Y'all this has gotten lots better for me after ibogaine y'all. But I will say, I still do battle this at times, a scared and not knowing what to think feelings are not pleasant. Being scared, of not only what's going to happen but in fear for the future as well is not a pleasant feeling. I will admit y'all, after the loss of my dad I really have felt a lot more open to be hurt feeling scared like I will be attacked. Now y'all, mind you after a spinal cord injury for certain i

Y'all I for certain am most grateful to God and Jesus Christ. Without them none of this life would be possible, plus I also wouldn't have been born so then there is that to. But I have done quite the 180 over the past year and a half and past year. For certain, have been getting closer back to God but also becoming aware of some sins that were more sinful than I originally thought. As well as I am watching my sins now more carefully and being more careful. As well, I have bee

Well, y'all I do not think God does poetic justice but not far from that after life here on earth. To the good, with minorly sinners or that watched sins I believe he punishes still but less harshly than ones not watching sins. Also, everything is not a bed of roses when it comes to God, Jesus did in fact did have nails driven through his palms of his hand, feet with a crown of thorns placed around his scalp, for being innocent but he did that for all of us out of love. That

I titled this blog article on my website accordingly, many times hit places either in recovery or other aspects of life where it feels like it's a gridlock and everything halts and all of sudden you are trying as hard and fast as you can to further along into further success. But, in the meantime sinking in quicksand of self-doubt, self-critic and usually having to destroy the old image of me that was burnt in the back of my mind I got out and happen to be no longer. Yet, at

Oh man, if I only had a nickel for every time I doubted myself id be a billionaire but that's not the way the world works. However, do not give into self-doubt that's Satan's playground. Once he gets in your mind your really up hell creek for a while until, I did this for far too long and I am here to tell y'all about it. I doubted myself in team roping and rodeo, I doubted myself in flying before as well. I have also doubted myself in relationships as well, I really have dou

Alrighty y'all, there is only so much self-protection doubt you can think after a life altering accident that has two catastrophic injuries, too many lose their life to. There is only so much telling yourself people are not living life to the fullest as you are laid up in bed and laid up at home certain times. I know those nights I was spending in a hospital bed; people were out being social meeting new people and living their life to the fullest. There is only so much tellin

Y'all for me this goes for not spinning back around to drinking times or drinking at all, not only heavily but not at all. Gladly can say, I'm now 1 year 2 months 14 days sober again, and 12 days now without a vape of nicotine. I will admit, dealing with stress and worries are certainly lots to cope with, now those two vices are gone. Addiction to alcohol and drugs is disgusting, it ruins more lives and people throw all quality away whenever living like that. I know because I

Alrighty y'all, after a traumatic brain injury on top of having extreme anxiety, some PTSD, depression in recovery as well as stopped vaping 12 days ago and 1 year 2 months 14 days sober. I will admit, whenever I get worried the mind becomes a scary place at that point. I will say my mind know the thoughts I personally do not want to have and are annoying for me to have. Then my mind sends though much more and tortures me. But I feel Satan attacking because he wants me to bre

Well, y'all let me to tell me you what, controlling speed of thoughts is completely vital. This will set, the speed of the way I do things but also affect my mood after brain injuries. After my second brain injury, it has been really hard at times whenever cannot control thought speed. Then a hazardous thought collides with another hazardous thought, and they sink a person. I found controlling and keeping a steady flow pace of mind helpful and keeping things quicker and more

Yes, I quit vaping nicotine today used to chain smoke at time whenever would get nervous. Today, is day one in 2.5 years without any nicotine vape, reasons I am quitting is eyesight. My mom has glaucoma from them going too deep with the epidural during my sea section of me being born. She has glaucoma now and has to watch eye pressures and has to watch her vaping. I started to notice it was impacting my right eye a little bit; I stopped it's not worth my eyesight. Health is y

Well for starters, mental health is just as important as physical health and can play off each other. Also, part of being mentally healthy happens to be taking medication as needed and as prescribed. There is no shame of needing medication, I know coming from the way I grew up not taking medication besides over the counter stuff. Until my later years in my early young adulthood I started needing prescribed medication to deal with the brain injury stuff that came coming off th

This happens to be something repeated all over the Bible, but this happens to be something to which my parents instilled in me as well. My dad, big Mike Christiansen, and my mom LaRee Smith Christiansen engrained that into me as a young child. As I was speaking with my mom today, I said you know anytime either one of us gets home or I arrive home I feel blessed and grateful, and granted extra life on earth, that's been undeserving of God's extra blessings. You know God gives

Hey everyone, as I have made known and I am not ashamed anymore to say I see a counselor. There is not anything wrong with seeing a counselor, it's completely alright to see a counselor and get the help needed. Even if that requires medication for assistance as well, that alright. Starting out this morning, I will be honest y'all I was quite scared starting this morning off. I finally found a great counselor I had with the last one, and she got a promotion which she most cert

When doctors at Ku inpatient told my parents it was going to be hard to tell what was causing what. This was due to two major injuries, one being spinal cord injury at T12 with breaks at 8, and 10 as well. But I also had numerous other injuries, but the other major injury was brain injury on my frontal and temporal lobe. With this being really hard to deal with hearing had a brain injury, inside my mind I was like wait what this cannot be happening. I have such a sharp mind,