Toxic Self Pinned Corners

Oftentimes, throughout my life some of the darkest corners found myself trapped in, were often self inflicted. Oftentimes they were, really either traveling backwards to the other direction where I did not want to go. Or, it many of the times was because I was then falling back on old vices to help cope. These were before healthy coping mechanisms.

Where this begins the worst happens to be with snowballing thinking thoughts, a snowball type of thinking and letting my thoughts start fumbling out of control. It’s like some time having a really deep thought and reaching summit of the thought if like watching a airplane hit a hammerhead stall. You see this high powered engine go blazing straight up and fiercely, until cannot climb anymore stalls out, pilot kick stick to side and does a hammerhead and lets it tumble. Alright with ways of thinking and deep thought processing, hit summits of thoughts like airplanes I was flying stall.

You level off, yank over back to ovation speed, apply full power and start climbing like your taking off, you are going to keep climbing though and steep enough until you stall. After stalling little buffer slight nose drop back to level. What I am is saying is after a traumatic brain injury you dit have to go about thoughts like your in an air show or killing snakes at times. That’s the difference in how my mind works pre and post TBI’s.

My mind working in different ways after two traumatic brain injuries, which much thanks to the ibogaine much has been helped. Much has been made better with the ibogaine treatment. Also with the willingness and fear to crawl back to Christ.

Thank y’all, God bless, Glory to God

Kyle Christiansen