Gratitude

This happens to be something repeated all over the Bible, but this happens to be something to which my parents instilled in me as well. My dad, big Mike Christiansen, and my mom LaRee Smith Christiansen engrained that into me as a young child.

As I was speaking with my mom today, I said you know anytime either one of us gets home or I arrive home I feel blessed and grateful, and granted extra life on earth, that's been undeserving of God's extra blessings.

You know God gives us life, he creates us then we are born and, on this earth, we are doing what's expected to fight temptations, and to fight temptation off, to serve to Lord while here, and to make something really good of ourselves on this earth.

As well, we are to treat people as we would want to be expected, sometimes we need to think of that with life and God. Maybe we should treat God, Jesus Christ as the way they deserve to be treated? If I were God, I would've struck me down long ago for behavior and disrespect towards the Lord, throughout times of utter hopelessness and desperation for help used his name in vain, and for all he has done for me.

With this being said, people look at the thoughts we have as well. As it goes in Catholic mass Forgive me Father for, I have sinned in my thoughts, words, and forgetting the other one, not been to mass for a while. I have been getting really close to God, but through the Bible and prayer.

I do not have a problem with anyone who goes to church and doesn't try running it down people's throat while being hypocritical though. If they want to be hypocritical that's fine but don't drag others into it. Also do not going around passing judgment. Really there is no room for judgement, everyone is being judged for the end day but guess what you'll be judged again when Christ comes.

I believe when Christ comes again to judge the living and the dead, its because to see the chain reaction effect of sins and how that had a detrimental effect on future family members.

I believe we are supposed to feel empathy for God as well; we are to feel sorry for what he has to deal with. whether it be the weight of sin he feels, or whether it is the amount of disrespect he is shown constantly. I believe we are born; we go through our child years getting core belief foundations set in place, then have years that are mess off years as in not growing spiritually much like throughout teenage years. Until 20's hit, and really after I started feeling the consequences from my bad choices drinking.

I knew at one point in my life, I was not going to find the way out of the bottle for any brink of time if didn't have God by my side. I gladly pulled myself up got myself together going really strong for some years, then my accident happened.

Really the onset of my separation from God originally came in 2013 late 2013 got away from God. I suffered some years of feeling like I was living a Godless life, God is real he was present in my life and had big things in store for me. But I kept fighting him the entire time. As well not hanging onto Jesus like needed to be doing at certain times.

For some time, I even ran from people in relationships, both relationships and friendships. Sometimes I was scared about showing my true colors, and that I have a huge heart, warm heart, sympathetic, empathetic, laid back, sarcastic, but overall pleasant. I was a real bear to be around for some time there, I was a monster, an all-out bear to deal with and to be around period. I literally was a ticking time bomb that was explosive with anger and temper and rage that all got taken care of.

I am no longer having anger or rage problems, praise God, thank you Jesus, they are the only way. I also want to thank them for the care team I was assigned at the hospital, the doctors, therapist, I thank God for looking over those people all those mornings on the ways to work and through each procedure.

I also thank God, that he looked over all family friends coming and going to and from the hospital. As well as all the people that really helped out in a large way after my accident as well loss of my dad.

Much appreciated, Kyle Christiansen