Admitting Oneself Is The Problem

Y’all, this happens to be much in due to my drinking in the past. Until reaching sobriety, many times shot my own foot off; sank my own boat as well. It was not pleasant at all. To many times, i did this all to repeat the same mistake over and over. Or i would circle back to same crowd over and over. Whatever it may be, i was doing things that were not productive and benefitting my future many times.

Now, looking in the mirror and saying i need to quit this toxic behavior and toxicity of circling the drain with drinking and self medicating with pills at times like Adderall. There were many times; i self medicated for depression and anxiety with pills and alcohol. Admitting to myself, i needed to quit that toxic behavior was not easy.

Admitting, to myself at times need to loose weight has been hard in the past. Even really being thin now, I still will say I will still have 15 pounds to loose. I am at 185-187 pounds now, i still need to be around 160-170 pounds or at least under 180 i feel like.

Admitting, i needed to put forth more in accident recovery at times; Kyle M, really was at large to thank for lots of the massive progress forward. Time with him, originally got spun off time with therapist Danielle who originally got me going again and then full tilt let loose for my recovery after that. Working with both of them that rough phase late 2019, was a turning point for my accident recovery as well as, my future.

Admitting, really honestly folks that God has always been on my side on all our sides. When things work out for us he is really blessing us with gifts, when things do not pan out. Well y’all, then you have to see he was protecting you from something or someone, or protecting your life or so forth. God is Great.

God has a greater plan than what we originally think, as well; always important to remember life’s meaning and purpose and the meaning and value of life. I have seen this far to often over the years in society looks like has gotten overall disrespectful, not kind society as a whole at all.

Now, with that being said, I believe most people are good but they are so caught up in their own stuff constantly to think of anyone else. However, things like opening doors and things like that should be common courtesy for people to do for the person behind them. As well as throwing up a little thanks to Christ and God sometimes.

Also not living a lie, is something that find crucial in todays world as well. It is so easy to be drug down, delusional rabbit holes and go delirious and then not anything good comes from that at all. Admitting to oneself, oneself is struggling with delusions can be more than difficult y’all.

However this y’all can be done, can be done and overcome. Now I battled delusions for years, still fight them off, but I have found coping mechanisms and healthy ways to deal with things when they arise.

Take care y’all God bless, Glory to God

Kyle Christiansen